Doom Metal Alchemist

This is actually a legit point, don't be surprised if you get banned for this nabs.

I definitely have, nabs seems to remember now that I brought it up. Most of the time I brought it up it the discussion was likely revolving [she who must not be named]'s bipolar escapades. If you just plain don't remember, that is understandable. It is not that noteworthy anyway. Even so, not sure why you even brought up the psych meds, as you weren't pestering me to drink, and the only reason I brought them up is to tell nabs me drinking alcohol ain't a good idea. Ok, let's discuss how this time it's different.... When did I ask for advice on the romantic front? Asking out that girl at work.... Yes, it took me forever to do it, but I still did it. How often have i asked for advice outside of that thread? Not much that I can recall.... Almost all of the recent discussions where I "make excuses" are other people quoting me in other people's threads that have nothing to do with sex and responding with the likes of "so doom, how come you're not out getting laid?" And then I say things, and I get accused of making excuses. This time, I'M the one bringing it up, I'm excited about it, and now YOU'RE the one making excuses about how/why I'm not going to do anything. You see the irony here? When I have no interest in discussing it and other people bring it up in unrelated threads I'm accused of making excuses, but now when I'm excited and brining it up on my own those same people accusing me of making excuses are.... making excuses. The main "excuse" I've always had, that rightly or wrongly, was a legit worry of mine, I literally just stated, "Hey, I was wrong! I have nothing to worry about on that front!" Furthermore, this isn't even an advice thread. I wasn't looking for any, nor did I ask for any in the OP. It's just a blog post. I got excited and felt like sharing.

There was literally a whole episode about her dreaming of a place where she can buy large sized women's shoes.

Why is she glaring at me?

For the record, which I'm sure you're already fully aware, The Sun is notorious for being 100% tabloid bullshit.

Eh, I haven't said much in this thread I haven't told my irl friends anyway. Also I've not made it a secret here I'm bipolar and on meds. As for advice, I'm not really looking for any right now. I just asked scoob for advice, because for whatever reason he chose to take a giant shit on me, so I decided he may as well be constructive about it.

I know how you feel. I wear the absolute smallest size in adult men's there is. One half size smaller I'd be in children's sizes.

I seem to recall a few ladies in the selfie thread recently bemoan it's hard to find women's shoes in larger sizes. I just came across this in my facebook feed. Are they good? Are they affordable? Is it worth buying shoes online? I don't know! But it's the thought that counts, right? https://www.pinknews.co.uk/2021/10/11/asos-ttya-london-collection-footwear-size-inclusive-price/?fbclid=IwAR0yOKK0211SdGp3oG1QlStiECgNMGpF4dbwc7oA3MmDJnnXBxegswUOaco

I really don't feel like explaining why I was worried about my mom freaking out because I realized yesterday it's a non-issue, no reason to explain further. Nabs, quite a while ago jackiemarie talked about a dating app she was on called Bumble. She said the twist to that app was that the girl asks out the guy. That is something I need to get in on. Just make a profile, sit back, and let (and hope) the messages roll in. If that doesn't work, I have some friends that can go to bars with me to be my wingmen. But even if I go bar hopping, I still can't drink due to my psych meds. They say one drink should be fine, but even one sometimes makes me feel like shit.

I'm older than 34 but that usually seems to be the magic number of the grown loser who lives with his mom that's often seen on TV.

lol

I guess I just saw the common trope of the 34 year old loser who still lives with his mom on TV too many times?

Honestly I'm more worried about becoming an irl 40 year old virgin than zeni beating me.

Figured my mom would still freak out where I'm going and why. Yes, she's nosey. It don't matter now. Hell, I guess there's no reason not to do this now if I want.

They are still paying the mortgage. Will I inherit the house? Honestly that would be pretty cool, provided they actually pay it off before my dad dies (I'm 100% sure me or one of my brothers will have to take my mom in if my dad dies first, and I'm the only relative left in this town). Regardless if my money is going to hospital bills or the mortgage I am happy to contribute. Honestly I assumed I was burdening them by being here so it's a relief I'm not. I would not call it a hostage situation because the main issue I want to move out was just revealed to not be an issue at all (having pre-marital sex in my parents' house). Couple that with I STILL don't think I can even afford a place where I'd want to live right now.

I think I'm doing better in that department, I was able to get a band going (for a long time in my teens and early 20s I refused to look to join or form a band because I felt I wasn't good enough. I was dead wrong, but eh). I even asked a dude who has released full lengths on huge doom metal labels like Shadow Kingdom Records and Rise Above Records to join my at the time fledgling band on drums. I am immensely proud of my music and once it's more complete and polished I have a lot of confidence I can get a real cult following. I have a lot more confidence in my looks than I used to. I even have abs now, which I've never in my life had before I started my current job. I did feel "inferior" for living with my parents at my age but my dad just gave me a huge boost with this talk. Sometimes outside perspectives are needed in cases like these so in what ways would you say I seem to feel inferior?

My dad was first charging me $650, he arrived at that number because that's what my brother was going to charge me to live with him when it looked like I was going to move in with him in Sacramento for a job. At some point my dad confided in me that my mom's hospital bills were taking a toll financially and mentally, so I offered to up my own rent to $850. And believe me, he isn't screwing me. Ain't no way I'll ever find a place around here in a safe area for under $1,000. Even $1,000 is a stretch. Even though it's not the bay area or L.A., it's still CA. I was even planning on asking my dad to up my rent to $1,050 just to see how comfortably I can live on that without risk of being thrown out on my ass if it's too much to afford. And my dad brought up this conversation out of the blue all on his own, and I'm the one that brought up my concern of dating.

Well do you have any advice on how to get closer, or you just going to be a negative nancy just to be a dick?

Ok.

I recently got a decent sized raise and because of that I've been considering moving out of my parents' house. The chief reason I wanted to move out is because I really want to start dating and having sex, and I was very confident me having pre-marital sex would cause my mom to freak out. My parents know I've been looking around for affordable places to live in areas of town that are generally known as safe places to live.... my dad just out of the blue told me he hopes I don't move out soon because the rent I am paying them is helping them out a lot financially. See I figured that he wanted me to pay rent just because of the old "well if you're going to stay here, you're going to contribute financially" thing parents do for their grown kids, especially considering how old I am and how almost my entire life I've been financially dependent on them. But now it's come to light they actually have significantly MORE money with me living here and paying rent than they would if I was not living here at all, AND it's apparently it's not just extra disposable income they're getting from me, but money that's really helping out a real financial situation. So I told my dad of my concern with my mom freaking out at the thought of me having pre-marital sex in her own house. My dad assured me that should not be an issue, to my surprise. My other dating-related concern about living with my parents that I did not tell him, is that if I do land some dates and bring women here, they would probably think it pathetic that someone of my age lives with his parents and any dating I do while living here might not go too far because of that. Well, my dad just gave me a great excuse: My dad says he likes me living here paying rent because it helps them out financially. So next step: Clean my room because it's a pig sty. Then I can finally make that profile on Bumble. TL;DR I'm a lot closer to being able to start dating than I thought. Just got to get my room clean.

That's right, I also thought I tasted pineapple.