I have a horrible secret. When my parents take me out for my birthday next year (assuming we'll actually be done with all this bullshit by then) I want them to get the staff to sing happy birthday to me. But that was only very recently I wanted that. Almost me entire life my stance was "you do that to me I will never forgive you." But I don't want to tell my parents that I changed my mind because that seems kinda pathetic, you know, "Hey mom, can you ask them to sing happy birthday for me, please?" Like you requesting your own birthday song seems like it would make you seem conceited or starved for attention or something. It's not your loved ones wishing you a happy birthday, it's you're wishing yourself a happy birthday.