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Like I said it's hard to explain, but seeing Buckethead back in the saddle again, so to speak, has been a very enjoyable experience for me. I'm just a fan, of course. Buckethead is the musician who put in all the hard work, worked through his hurdles, and has gone absolutely bonkers the past 6 or 7 years now; releasing over 200 albums, extensively touring again. It's definitely good to see him back from his hiatus. I understand that he must have went through a lot of personal issues and such, but he seems to have pulled through and he seems like he's more focused than ever. I have such a respect for this man's dedication, his work ethic, his study ethic, his insane proclivity towards understanding the tones. I guess that's what I'm trying to say, is I'm so glad it, at least appears, that Buckethead is doing better and he seems very ambitious and focused and dedicated and committed to it. That's all. I just love Buckethead and am glad he's apparantley feeling better and is able to get back to his passion so we can jump back into his passion. Proximity Genius Osmosis: Uhhh. Enjoy.

Drink up. I'm sure that'll mix well with all your hormone replacement therapy. Pop a few xannies for good measure.

I have a new job already.

Mental state of a broken record. Shocking.

Will def go see tomorrow night. Code Geass is one of the best anime.

Coming from the sad sack that leaves me 30 or so little presents in my notifications several times a day.

This is probably like the tenth time I been listening to the radio recently, heard a song I either don't remember or don't recognize, enjoy it, go look it up "Oh. It's two decades old... that makes sense." And it really does just make sense at this point, considering the shift music production took during the early 2000's (((quantize EVERYTHING!!!))). It's so weird. It's like, when they didn't treat music like an assembly line production... it's almost... almost like you can tell that the music has a fucking soul, balls, or at the very least a resonant theme. Latest example of this "phenomena":

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Grabbing a hair of the dog and sucking it down on the drive to work was a big wake up call for me. Can't believe I was ever in a state of mind where that seemed like a perfectly reasonable, fine thing to do.

Incel beta cuck.

Let them laugh. It is ultimately inconsequential. You are acting out of love and respect for yourself by seeking to improve your health and extend your life. Do not hurt yourself for the sake of others. You are worth it.

I have the same social anxiety because I know I'm a pathetic fatass and people are probably laughing at all my jiggling rolls and heavy breathing doing 3mph on the treadmill. You kinda have to just let the gallows humor roll and own it; if you drop dead from a heart attack at least it gives the body builders something to laugh about.

qq moar

I haven't had a drink in 20 months. I'm going to Wawa for breakfast.

I liked the first John Wick movie. They kinda over-egged the pudding with the second. Might see this, might not. Keanu is a very talented actor, though. I like the movies he is in.

This analysis of the Eva movies left me feeling pretty shook. Not gonna lie. Even though I've never watched Eva except for EoE, this resonated a lot more than I was anticipating... It goes into the themes of rejecting escapism and embracing the real world and how basically the entire fan base got it wrong. My escapism has always been drugs, not anime or video games but I guess it doesn't matter what method you take the result is still the same. As gay as it sounds, I found this video to be extremely powerful and a refreshing and necessary splash of cold water. It has helped me become more life-affirming and optimistic. Though I still struggle to make meaningful connections with other people, I am at least trying to live for me first and foremost.

I like getting up at 4 sometimes. Gives me plenty of time to wash up and get some exercise in right as the sun is coming up.

It's a 'Eurotrip' meme. And, yes. That's Matt Damon.

This looks like balls.

Ohhhhh. Okay. I guess I can see that. Hadn't heard anything about that, though. It's just edgelord Superman it looks like more and more. Plus it kinda feels like it's Deadpool and Logan dickriding at this point. Super h4rdc0r3 edgelord R rated superhero kids laser melting people's faces off. James Gunn's brothers are hack frauds. Seriously. The premise sounds like something a Gothed Topic tween would fingerfart out on some shitty fanfiction website with a black background and some sort of raven/curly font motif.

The.... The manga/anime Berserk? Wut? Was the kid supposed to be like Femto or something? I never made that connection. Can you explain why people were making the correlation?