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And there is no one on campus I can talk too. A lot of people think I'm a clingy friend, and they would be right. No one wants to really take care of me, a lot of guys are willing if I fuck them, but again, I have no sexual desires because of my depression. But I really need someone to help calm me down, but everyone hates me. lmao. I mean, most of the days, if it gets really bad, I just start smoking for the night at 4pm and try to pretend the outside world doesn't exist, and go to bed early and start the day all over. But there really isn't anything worth doing these days. I hate being awake, I hate being here. Time to continue my already high tolerance on smoking even more. 😐

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And there is no one on campus I can talk too. A lot of people think I'm a clingy friend, and they would be right. No one wants to really take care of me, a lot of guys are willing if I fuck them, but again, I have no sexual desires because of my depression. But I really need someone to help calm me down, but everyone hates me. lmao. I mean, most of the days, if it gets really bad, I just start smoking for the night at 4pm and try to pretend the outside world doesn't exist, and go to bed early and start the day all over. But there really isn't anything worth doing these days. I hate being awake, I hate being here. Time to continue my already high tolerance on smoking even more. 😐

baby come smoke with me and let me comfort you

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Anxiety is the worst. 

Drinking water and going for a walk helps me when it's really bad.

School must be weighing heavy on your subconscious. The pandemic doesn't help. 

They key is to get your mind off the anxiety first. Stop thinking about the things that might be causing it, and focus on putting the anxiety out of your mind. 

Even if you just get up and make a grilled cheese sandwich or take a shower, walk, paint your nails, it's taking your mind off of it, and focusing on the task at hand.

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Anxiety is the worst. 

Drinking water and going for a walk helps me when it's really bad.

School must be weighing heavy on your subconscious. The pandemic doesn't help. 

They key is to get your mind off the anxiety first. Stop thinking about the things that might be causing it, and focus on putting the anxiety out of your mind. 

Even if you just get up and make a grilled cheese sandwich or take a shower, walk, paint your nails, it's taking your mind off of it, and focusing on the task at hand.

I wish I could say it was just school, but if I'm being honest, there was a lot of people hard fucking in the house today, and I was just reminded how I have trouble even talking to people without fidgeting or embarrassing myself. Now that I live with someone that hates me, it makes it harder to be social. I am feel nervous for missing yoga today even though I was just really tired. But I feel guilty for missing it. I just feel like I want to die and not exist. lmao

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1 hour ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I wish I could say it was just school, but if I'm being honest, there was a lot of people hard fucking in the house today, and I was just reminded how I have trouble even talking to people without fidgeting or embarrassing myself. Now that I live with someone that hates me, it makes it harder to be social. I am feel nervous for missing yoga today even though I was just really tired. But I feel guilty for missing it. I just feel like I want to die and not exist. lmao

Don't say that. 

I might be an asshole on here, but we are friends on Facebook. If you ever want to talk, just hit me up there. 

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Quick question, are you in therapy and if you aren't can you afford to be? If you can't is there somewhere near you that might offer some form of counseling? It sounds to me that you might need a bit more than a friend can offer. But, if you get really desperate you could always message me and I can give you bad advice.

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1 hour ago, RainyDayJizz#35 said:

@jezebelthenun

It's a clingy friend with anxiety for you.

Weirdest.  Present.  Ever.

2 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

And there is no one on campus I can talk too. A lot of people think I'm a clingy friend, and they would be right. No one wants to really take care of me, a lot of guys are willing if I fuck them, but again, I have no sexual desires because of my depression. But I really need someone to help calm me down, but everyone hates me. lmao. I mean, most of the days, if it gets really bad, I just start smoking for the night at 4pm and try to pretend the outside world doesn't exist, and go to bed early and start the day all over. But there really isn't anything worth doing these days. I hate being awake, I hate being here. Time to continue my already high tolerance on smoking even more. 😐

But in all seriousness, if you need someone to talk/vent to, my various inboxes are open.  I don't always reply right away, but I will definitely get back with you.  Warning: I am an advice machine who cannot be stopped once I'm asked for help (and sometimes when I'm not, shut up, Musket) and I will send you studies, relaxation techniques, and all the good vibes I can muster.  Clingy anxiety friend, meet overly attached psych major mom figure with a savior complex.

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I'm a clingy friend?

 

Have. . . Have you never had friends before? Worrying about you =/= clingy!

I was gonna text you.  Now I ain't.  Harumph.

6 minutes ago, RainyDayJizz#35 said:

Who better to understand a clingy friend with anxiety than a clingy friend with anxiety. Maybe you can keep each other busy and I can hibernate a couple months without someone asking what's wrong with me.

 

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3 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I wish I could say it was just school, but if I'm being honest, there was a lot of people hard fucking in the house today, and I was just reminded how I have trouble even talking to people without fidgeting or embarrassing myself. Now that I live with someone that hates me, it makes it harder to be social. I am feel nervous for missing yoga today even though I was just really tired. But I feel guilty for missing it. I just feel like I want to die and not exist. lmao

Is it possible you feel a lack of structure in your life?

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You got a PS4?

You can play some street fighter or tekken with me...I know how to make it fun without grinding you into dust...If that's not your bag, I have Fall guys, terraria, don't starve, dead by daylight, Apex, pretty much anything my son has gotten because it's what's hot in the streets....I suck at all of them, so you get to be in control.

I also have Pokemon on Switch....That i wish someone would play with me.....But I take no prisoners in that.....My animals will prevail.

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Had my first anxiety attack back in December. Was so bad I thought I was having a heart attack. 4 am and I was in the ER. Didn't get home until 2pm.

Long story short...I'm now on Lexapro because it just kept getting worse and worse.

Definitely see someone if you can. Shits rough and can takes its toll on other parts of your life.

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4 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

And there is no one on campus I can talk too. A lot of people think I'm a clingy friend, and they would be right. No one wants to really take care of me, a lot of guys are willing if I fuck them, but again, I have no sexual desires because of my depression. But I really need someone to help calm me down, but everyone hates me. lmao. I mean, most of the days, if it gets really bad, I just start smoking for the night at 4pm and try to pretend the outside world doesn't exist, and go to bed early and start the day all over. But there really isn't anything worth doing these days. I hate being awake, I hate being here. Time to continue my already high tolerance on smoking even more. 😐

I save History Memes for this

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4 hours ago, jezebelthenun said:

I'm a clingy friend?

 

Have. . . Have you never had friends before? Worrying about you =/= clingy!

I was gonna text you.  Now I ain't.  Harumph.

 

Well there was the time you were grilling me over the strawberry on my head I caught from a fall. Or when you said I ignored your text except we both live in dead zones. Why are you lying to me?!? Lol. I kinda remember you mentioning the clingy-like way you are so I didn't know it was gonna be a national emergency.

But you always whine about having no friends and jackie is cool. So make with the friending.

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LOL, fucking deserters....Hmmm, I've dipped out on strangers before but I don't think I've ever just dipped on Board memebers.....

Nope, I'm lying....I definitely dipped on Rumb0's laggy ass in Tekken and I played Conan_Wong in Street Fighter for a few fights but can't recall how that ended.  But Boo, Glodson, Valiente, Zeni, Nabs, PhilStoned....Even Chunk, I always gave warning.

 

EDIT, Oh fuck, I guess the pic didn't load...I didn't even see that part about the keys...Hilarious.

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@RainyDayJizz#35 That's a lot of words to put in my mouth, you goon.  Taking my very on purpose exaggerations this seriously isn't your style.  You okay?  You know you're welcome here always, with or without invitation, I like new friends, and you're awesome, and IIIIIIII LOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOUUUUU.

Sir Paul McCartney said that last part.

 

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21 hours ago, stilgar said:

Quick question, are you in therapy and if you aren't can you afford to be? If you can't is there somewhere near you that might offer some form of counseling? It sounds to me that you might need a bit more than a friend can offer. But, if you get really desperate you could always message me and I can give you bad advice.

Was in therapy all year last year, but my therapist has switched offices and moved on. I did see a psychiatrist today, they are putting me back on ALL of my meds and I'm really excited. I get adderall back tso that should definitely help with school, and a nighttime anti anxiety one too.

20 hours ago, scoobdog said:

Is it possible you feel a lack of structure in your life?

I mean, I did switch student housing. And I loved my old co-op! They were full of happy young gen z'ers that loved me. XD We would hug, help each other with homework, and cook food together too. But I signed my contract for this place last spring, and as much as I loved the kids 6 to 10 years younger than me there, I know I got get out of my comfort zone and try to meet other 30 year olds here. lol

20 hours ago, Radical Left said:

You got a PS4?

You can play some street fighter or tekken with me...I know how to make it fun without grinding you into dust...If that's not your bag, I have Fall guys, terraria, don't starve, dead by daylight, Apex, pretty much anything my son has gotten because it's what's hot in the streets....I suck at all of them, so you get to be in control.

I also have Pokemon on Switch....That i wish someone would play with me.....But I take no prisoners in that.....My animals will prevail.

Wait, are you Buddy? I swear I can never tell who's alt is whose alt. I do but I'm starting a heavy homework load semester, and may not have time. In truth, I was thinking of selling my ps4 for a switch since that's what all the students play here. 

19 hours ago, Poof said:

What are you so worried about?

Being awake, and not being good enough for my grades, my friends, and this opportunity I have.

15 hours ago, Sawdamizer said:

Like Buddy, I am on Xbox if that is a viable outlet...im funny, or at least that's what I've been told... I AM KNOWN FOR MY IRISH GOODBYE THO... 

no one has xbox 

I haz PS4 >__> But really, I do think part of the solution is posting here more often. I've let my old co-op occupy my time but while I'm still getting to know people I should just poast here moar. lol

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3 minutes ago, Poof said:

adderall for someone w/anxiety? doctors are weird

The anxiety isn't always so constant, it's happens in moments, apparently once every 1 to 2 months. But I'm excited that I can control my adhd and not focus on dumb things and throw my focus into school

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1 minute ago, jackiemarie90 said:

The anxiety isn't always so constant, it's happens in moments, apparently once every 1 to 2 months. But I'm excited that I can control my adhd and not focus on dumb things and throw my focus into school

yup cocaine gets shit done

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1 hour ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I mean, I did switch student housing. And I loved my old co-op! They were full of happy young gen z'ers that loved men. XD We would hug, help each other with homework, and cook food together too. But I signed my contract for this place last spring, and as much as I loved the kids 6 to 10 years younger than me there, I know I got get out of my comfort zone and try to meet other 30 year olds here. lol

Not quite what I meant, but close.  Support structure is a part of it; I was actually asking about more of a general structure to your life, including a set routine and set points where you can retreat to at specific times in the day.  I don't like to call them safe spaces because they aren't necessarily that, but set points are places you are familiar with and you always go at certain times of the day so that you can partition your day off accordingly.  It just seems to me that you don't have much of a routine and that can really wreck havoc on you, emotionally and physically.

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17 minutes ago, scoobdog said:

Not quite what I meant, but close.  Support structure is a part of it; I was actually asking about more of a general structure to your life, including a set routine and set points where you can retreat to at specific times in the day.  I don't like to call them safe spaces because they aren't necessarily that, but set points are places you are familiar with and you always go at certain times of the day so that you can partition your day off accordingly.  It just seems to me that you don't have much of a routine and that can really wreck havoc on you, emotionally and physically.

Also meant to say they loved me. Not men >__> But they were kinda my schedule, I would wake up and talk to them in the mornings, cook dinner with them. etc.

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3 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Was in therapy all year last year, but my therapist has switched offices and moved on. I did see a psychiatrist today, they are putting me back on ALL of my meds and I'm really excited. I get adderall back tso that should definitely help with school, and a nighttime anti anxiety one too.

That is rough about your therapist but it is also good that you are gonna get all your meds again.

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I have anxiety too my doctor gives me a script for diazepam for when I have an episode and it really helps. Maybe you could talk to a doctor? I know some people don't want to mess with those things and does not work as well for everyone but maybe something to look into.

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4 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Was in therapy all year last year, but my therapist has switched offices and moved on. I did see a psychiatrist today, they are putting me back on ALL of my meds and I'm really excited. I get adderall back tso that should definitely help with school, and a nighttime anti anxiety one too.

Oh I did not see this yet well I hope that that can help you. I know it helps me out when I am having very bad anxiety with racing thoughts and elevated heart rate and the feelings of doom. 

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2 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Not with anyone I really know, just someone I know who really hates me. I have joined 7am yoga on some days, but some days I don't want to wake up early.

I think that might be a source of your anxiety.  The party will certainly help you build some connections.

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9 hours ago, jezebelthenun said:

@RainyDayJizz#35 That's a lot of words to put in my mouth, you goon.  Taking my very on purpose exaggerations this seriously isn't your style.  You okay?  You know you're welcome here always, with or without invitation, I like new friends, and you're awesome, and IIIIIIII LOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOUUUUU.

Sir Paul McCartney said that last part.

 

See you think I was putting those words in your mouth when they were words of a general mouth of shitty people.

Typical woman, assuming they know the backstory of the backstory. But maybe if I answer a question with a fart I just thought it was funny at the time.

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9 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

 

Wait, are you Buddy? I swear I can never tell who's alt is whose alt. I do but I'm starting a heavy homework load semester, and may not have time. In truth, I was thinking of selling my ps4 for a switch since that's what all the students play here. 

 

And if you get a switch, get pokemon and mario party.

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8 hours ago, RainyDayJizz#35 said:

See you think I was putting those words in your mouth when they were words of a general mouth of shitty people.

Typical woman, assuming they know the backstory of the backstory. But maybe if I answer a question with a fart I just thought it was funny at the time.

I mean, I was quoted, so I thought it was meant to be my words.

We have a fart gun.  Do not talk to ME about funny fart responses, sir.

I like you even though you're nuts.

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