Real_AirCooledGirl

I wouldn't say "never" to that. Microsoft owns both Bethesda and Obsidian now.

Are you asking me if I want to be your board-wife?

The comparison I made was the best thing I could think of. Alternatively, you could think of going from the prior girls I dated to my hormone doc as going from driving a Ford to driving a Maybach. It's hard to go back. I've only used one dating site, Zoosk, and even then it was 1) back in my boymode years, 2) a long time ago (late 2000s), and 3) a lot of the women on there didn't seem like my type. There's at least a couple LGBTQ+ spots near me. I might try my luck there at the very least. But I think at least part of me will still have the hots for my doc, damn it. Don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering what could have been. Even if, for argument's sake, something did happen between her and I, I'd imagine we'd keep it a secret. If anyone got wind of us, we could always tell people we're married. If pressed for details, we'd just say we tied the knot at the courthouse; we'd have the excuse of a pandemic to explain not having a proper ceremony with our families and friends in attendance. And we could say we kept our own names intact so it's one less thing to update. Maybe I'm a little girl looking for a mommy. Maybe I want security and stability in my life, entry into a world I'm not part of but in which I belong. I never quite got that with other girls. Maybe I'm turned on by the thrill of breaking a taboo. But when you're a year into HRT, haven't actively looked for a partner in forever, and fall for someone, you can't help but think they could potentially be The One, regardless of how well you know them. And I have limited experience with the ladies, partly due to Asperger's syndrome (I didn't want anyone finding out for the longest time) and partly out of dysphoria (I always felt like playing the boyfriend role was forced when I knew I should be the girlfriend to another girl). The fact that my family always bantered and badgered me over why I didn't see anybody (especially coming from my great-grandmother, from 10th grade until the day she died) hasn't helped. Even they expected me to be a groom when I should be a bride, and I've never been married. There may be plenty of fish out there, but there's only one of her.

Not that well, to be honest. You and others make good arguments, I'll admit. But part of me wants to pursue something. I'm 35 and haven't dated anybody since long before I started transitioning. And now that I'm a year into living my truth, I'm thinking of getting myself back out there. And how would I go from someone like my hormone doctor to some other woman? That's potentially like going from a 5-star restaurant to McDonald's or Burger King. And I'm sure you and I both know how hard dating can be for a trans lesbian like me.

Did some more flirting with my eyes a couple weeks ago. Once again, we were stuck wearing COVID masks. Had to renew my estradiol script through my insurance because they only do it for a year per round of refills. Now, I play the waiting game. Meanwhile, I see the good doc in January and she wants me to do a full panel of blood work. She'll probably miss me as much as I will between now and then. While I can see where the ethics nuts are coming from, how am I supposed to go from her to anyone else? It'd feel like going from a 5-star restaurant to, say, McDonald's. Jesus H. Christ, I've got it bad. I like this woman so much it hurts.

So far, I only have one pair of women's shoes. The other three pairs I have are unisex. At least I can wear some Converses or steampunk boots with skinny jeans. And all summer, I've been rolling with a pair of low-heeled sandals. The main issue is finding women's shoes that fit my big-ass feet. I got the big feet genes from my mom. She and I are going to have to shop for some shoes in my size at some point, a mother-daughter day. When I was in boymode, I wore a U.S. men's size 11. That's equal to a 12 or 13 in women's. Why the hell are there different offsets for women's, men's and kids' sizes? Just use the metric Mondopoint scale instead! My foot in socks is 275 mm long by 105 mm wide, giving me a Mondopoint size of 275/105--SIMPLE!

I wanted to see this air on Toonami. Why the fuck did they have to fuck us over like this?

If a certain woman proposed to me, I'd say "Yes" without a second thought.

It'd take a special kind of woman to get me to walk down that aisle.

No. Streaming companies can give or take away content on a whim that way. Why should we consumers have to put up with that? I'd rather have anime, movies, etc. on physical media that I can display on my shelves. Having it streamed isn't the same. A critical piece of the experience is lost that way.

My stepdad is like this with my mom when he's drunk. He always pisses and moans about his past, how he grew up in an abusive foster home and shit. If it's not that, he bitches and moans about me transitioning. He once made comments about how he blames himself, that he wishes he taught me more "man things". That shit would NEVER have prevented me from transitioning and living my true self. When he does this, my mom puts her earbuds in and listens to music on her phone.

Why, though? What did Bandai Vi$ual U$A think was going to happen? I never bought anything from them except for the Blu-ray release of Wings of Honneamise, and that was well after they folded. I had previously bought the Manga Entertainment DVD and upgraded last year. I also managed to find a good deal on the Blu-ray disc.

Wait, Zenigundam is dying? I've seen him post on here from time to time, and I joined these boards last month. And this thread is from last year. Then again, I'm not slogging through five pages.