Real_AirCooledGirl

Giving kids puberty blockers isn't new. They've been doing it for cis kids undergoing precocious puberty since 1993. All puberty blockers do is hit the "pause" button on puberty. If you go off the blockers, puberty kicks in right where it left off, no harm done.

Almost a couple months ago, I made some chocolate halva. Offered some to my HRT doc but she declined. Eh, more for me. Didn't tell her it was homemade, though.

Viele dank. I'll keep these in mind.

I know Amazon sells large-size women's shoes. I might try them at some point. When I last looked at women's shoes online, I tried Hot Topic. All the stuff they had was too small for my big-ass feet. One of my mom's coworkers suggested trying Shoe Show; they sell shoes for women with large feet. Many options in larger sizes are often sold as crossdresser-style, and many of the mainstream brands top out at U.S. size 10 or 11. For the longest time, I rolled with black Converse high-tops (which I still keep around), mainly because I was confused about converting from men's to women's sizes. A trans man with small feet can simply buy his shoes from the young men's section of the store. But us trans gals (especially if we started with big feet)? Shoe-shopping can be harder. Women's shoes also run narrower than men's shoes so, depending on the manufacturer, I might need a wide width. Of course, I might see a drop in shoe size as long as I'm on HRT. This isn't due to changes in the bones of my feet but rather the ligaments and muscles. Similarly, I may notice slimming of my hands and wrists. But that takes years to happen.

We tried letting capitalists own the means of production and it FAILED. It belongs in the hands of the workers, in this case, voice actors, writers, directors, and other staff who do REAL work. Capitalists don't dub anime. WORKERS do.

The veggies weren't burnt. They're BLACKENED. And I cooked them from frozen.

Don't stop at paying the voice actors better. Have them seize the means of production, too.

My mom, aunt, and gender therapist have all suggested I look into some transgender support groups. Think I might give that a try. But I still want to land a nice girl to settle down with. And at 35, I feel like I have a lot of lost time to make up for. I'm not getting any younger. And believe me, if I'd known as an adolescent in the late '90s and early 2000s that I could have gone on puberty blockers followed by feminems, I'd have transitioned a long time ago already.

That's far easier said than done. I get fixated on a single person easily while not considering others. And part of me doesn't want anyone else but said doc, goddamn it. All too often, unrequited love has been an issue for me. There was this one girl I liked back in 9th grade; she turned out to be a right-wing Christian kook, COVIDiot, and anti-vax Karen all at the same time (which I discovered earlier this year). Another girl I liked from 11th to 12th grade, I mentioned in an earlier post here. She was this beautiful biracial girl that I got along well with, but I was always afraid she'd reject me for not being black. I later learned that she was a religious chick, and as an atheist, religious belief is a big turn-off for me no matter what faith or deity it is. And this current girl? I like her so much it hurts despite barely knowing her. If I'm going to look for a sugar mama, though, I might go where the rich people in my area go. There must be some rich gay, bi, and pan girls around. Bonus points if they like birds because I have a feather-baby myself, a blue-fronted amazon parrot named Ricky.

I don't put ketchup on my steaks. I like them well-done but I never put ketchup on them. I eat them as-is or put hot sauce on them.

Can't blame a girl for trying. I love to cook, so that's one thing I can bring to the table. This afternoon, I told my gender therapist about this. I told them (they're nonbinary, hence the they/them pronouns) about how I've had a crush on my HRT doctor for over two months now and can't get her out of my head. The day I brought that batch of halva with me, though, I didn't mention to her about how I made it myself with dark chocolate. If you want, I can DM you a photo I took of it. I also mentioned how I'm attracted to intelligent women, am looking for security and stability in my life by dating/marrying up, and the whole mommy/little girl thing (similar to the daddy/boy dynamic among some gay men). Last evening, though, after I read GunStarHero's post about this, I actually broke down and cried. Since starting HRT, crying spells have been very rare for me, surprisingly. I told my therapist this, too. And I also brought up fear of rejection as well. I was afraid of being rejected before transitioning and I still am now. I also told my therapist about how I've been considering getting myself out there and dating women as the woman I've always known myself to be but don't know where to start. They suggested I think about what I'd do with any woman I end up dating. That's quite a thing to think about considering my limited dating history. They also gathered that I prefer doing things in-person to using dating sites or apps. I always considered online dating shady because of the potential for catfishers, chasers, and murderous psychos. I told the therapist about how I once used Zoosk but nothing came of it. All the professionals I'm seeing may each have an incomplete picture of things. The more I tell them about everything, the better.

Raw meat doesn't seem safe to eat PERIOD. It's a primo breeding ground for bacteria and other pathogens! You want foodborne illnesses? That's how you get foodborne illnesses!

Does anyone else here watch his YouTube channel? I've been following him for over a year or so. Recently, he's come back to the States to do a food tour. Here's his latest video if anyone's interested.

I bet you'd eat raw chicken, too, if someone served it to you. If so, enjoy your salmonella.

Enjoy your E. coli.

You mean raw meat? Hell no! Meat is best cooked! Why would anyone want to eat raw meat such as steak tartare? WHY? COOK YOUR DAMN MEAT!