Real_AirCooledGirl

Guess I'll give Fena a watch when it airs then. Wish they'd also air Vinland Saga and The Heroic Legend of Arslan. I watched Arslan in Japanese before it was dubbed (it was on Hulu) but now I want to watch the dub.

I won't lie, I've always found intelligent women very hot. And now that I'm nearly a year into my transition, I've given some thought to dating women as my true self. No longer do I have to wear a guy mask. I sure as hell don't have to wear one for her. Add to that the thrill of breaking a taboo, an interest in tasting some forbidden fruit, and perhaps a bit of a mommy/girl dynamic and it makes her even more desirable. This was all natural and not forced. And after a life of blue-collar work, I wouldn't mind marrying up. Pre-transition, I worked in restaurants save for a stint in a bookstore. Two diners (one a chain; no, it wasn't Denny's) and a bar and grill. I washed dishes, prepped, bussed tables--I did a little bit of everything except serving and managing. In 2017, I was injured in a scooter crash and was on the verge of coming out as trans but thought nobody would believe me because I have Asperger's syndrome on top of it. After collecting a modest settlement for my troubles, I quit my last diner job, then came out to my mom. I also told my primary physician and two nurse practitioners with psych backgrounds. I got a referral to a gender therapist and then a trans-supportive endocrinologist. That endo was supposed to see me last March but COVID delayed it to July. She ordered blood work and prescribed titty skittles. Before moving to another state, she referred me to my current hormone doc. And I've been seeing her ever since. I never planned on falling for her; it just happened naturally. She already knows I'm trans, pre-op, and a lesbian. I last saw her on my birthday and did some nonverbal flirting with my eyes. Maybe she noticed, maybe she didn't; we were both wearing masks and that can only get you so far. And I find myself lost in those pretty eyes of hers.

I've never had a mod deem anything I say offensive so far. But I'm glad to be home among fellow ASMB'ers here. I miss the old boards but the cuss filter they had.

At the very least, dinner and making out with her. Maybe smoking a bowl, too. Don't know if she smokes weed, though. Probably not. If she does, I bet a girl like her gets her pick of the bud.

Same here! At least on these new boards, we can cuss all we want and they'll never be censored because "muh standards and practices". Fuck standards and practices.

The swear filters are the one thing I don't miss about the old boards. Why the hell did they have to have them? WHY? We live in the real world, and in the real world, PEOPLE CUSS!

Maybe so, but I keep having romantic fantasies about her. If I go into this, I don't have any expectations.

Tonic - If You Could Only See

dArtagnan - Komm mit

I get the ethical implications of this. I do. I'm the granddaughter of a doctor myself. But goddamn it, I still can't get her out of my head. Maybe it might be a mommy/little girl thing. Maybe it's my attraction to intelligent women kicking in. Maybe it's something else. That I don't fully know.

My birb is only noisy half the time. The rest of the time, he's pretty quiet. Whenever I have teletherapy with my gender therapist, Ricky sits on my shoulder and he's always quiet. Maybe it's because my therapist has a soothing voice. When binge-watching Star Trek, he's quiet, too.

You think so? I know damn well I could go for a sugar mama. And I've always been attracted to women who can lock horns with me from the neck up. Brains plus beauty equals a winning combination in my book. While I can see where you're coming from, I also don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering what could have been.

Miin Butterfaß isch gschtollt!