Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Have a seat on the couch and unpack some things 2 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 .... fine ... who ate the fucking gum I had in my desk?! Whole pack of Orbitz Sweet mint ... I have like 5 pieces left you little shits 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cyberbully Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 (edited) *plops down exasperated* Well, I'll be honest, 2020 has been a great year for me personally and with everything looming about these days, I feel like my luck will soon run out. You know how people say the calm before the storm...Well, that's how I feel. I mean, some fucked up shit has happened to me this years too...But I've come out the other side in every situation just a little happier than before. I'm used to turmoil...Hell, I usually create it when I get bored...But without looking at shit with a wide angle lens, 2020 has really been my year.....And it's more than halfway over. So it's like I'm already celebrating just for December to get here with a whole year's worth of fuck yous. I really hate my son's friends on PSN. I feel like they are toxic af....They keep up drama like (sexist) little girls...Talking behind each others backs, talking on mics to one group of friends while text chatting the others about them and vise versa. It just annoys me to watch and I usually make him go outside and deal with his plants and whatnot because it just gets so cringey. I'm constantly at the point where I want to block all of them and make him find new friends, but then I think "These are just internet kids...His real friends are cool, and they don't have this backstabby relationship that he seems to have over the internet with these kids, so leave him alone...This is probably just him trolling" but in the back of my brain, I'm always looking for excuses to finally force him not to associate with them, and I think it's petty just because I don't like these kids....I mean, they don't say racist shit, or do a lot of cursing like the people I usually meet on PSN (one kid had a potty mouth, but the other kids keep checking him because they apparently have parents that GaF and say they'll have to unfriend him if he keeps it up) So there is no "real" reason he can't play with them, but...It's a clique...I don't like his clique. I bought a birthday cake this morning....This is the 2nd time I've done this this year and it's no one's birthday....I just want cake. Edited July 13, 2020 by cyberbully 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lasty Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 I'm sick and tired of people ignoring each other's narratives. The televised news isn't covering the protests properly; from what I've seen in the livestreams I've been watching of Portland's protests, a vast majority of protesters are peaceful and non-violent and a few fires a bunch of graffiti does a riot make when a lot worse would be understandable considering how badly police treat minorities. There is a massive gas lighting push from the toxic elements in the world right now and it's working less and less as time goes on. There are a lot of mixed feelings for me. I'm frustrated at how many people are being so insensitive to everything that's happening and at my own situation which isn't the best; stuck in a shelter with a bunch of bigoted vulgar bums who smell like they don't even bother to wipe their asses or change their clothes much less wash their hands or shower. My silver linings right now are my dog, the fact that there's no shortage of toilet paper here, and the sheer scope and duration of the protests gives me a lot of hope for the future. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 So first let me make sure I understand everything correctly. 1. You are feeling some personal frustration about the way this year has been going thus far because nothing really detrimental has happened to you? I would like to say that being able to look back on the unpleasant things that have happened and finding yourself better afterwards is a very admirable quality that not all of us are able to do. As far as worrying about the next storm approaching, having some anxiety about the future is perfectly normal especially in these uncertain times. I would encourage you to take a moment to practice some mindfulness techniques when things are going great. Take some deep breaths and allow yourself to enjoy the calm. You appear to be resilient and that is something not to be taken for granted. 2. You're annoyed at the way in which your son chooses to interact with his friends over PSN. I think this too is a normal reaction every parent who is actually involved and monitoring their children's online activity should feel. Diverting his attention to other activities sounds like an excellent way to scale back on those negative interactions 3. Do you want to talk more about the cake? I'm not seeing anything to suggest you're coping with cake. As long as you're not eating all of it alone in one sitting ... in a dark room ... crying ... naked in xxxxl shirts that you have burst out of it and can no longer put your feet in shoes because the fat and lymphedema of your legs have made wearing shoes impossible. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 32 minutes ago, Lasty said: I'm sick and tired of people ignoring each other's narratives. The televised news isn't covering the protests properly; from what I've seen in the livestreams I've been watching of Portland's protests, a vast majority of protesters are peaceful and non-violent and a few fires a bunch of graffiti does a riot make when a lot worse would be understandable considering how badly police treat minorities. There is a massive gas lighting push from the toxic elements in the world right now and it's working less and less as time goes on. There are a lot of mixed feelings for me. I'm frustrated at how many people are being so insensitive to everything that's happening and at my own situation which isn't the best; stuck in a shelter with a bunch of bigoted vulgar bums who smell like they don't even bother to wipe their asses or change their clothes much less wash their hands or shower. My silver linings right now are my dog, the fact that there's no shortage of toilet paper here, and the sheer scope and duration of the protests gives me a lot of hope for the future. So I dont think I can talk more about either of those issues with you anymore than I already have. How did that job at Wendy's go? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Okay... I want to face plant into boobs, but can't because of social distancing. Everything wrong somehow boils down to that. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lasty Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Just now, Vamped said: So I dont think I can talk more about either of those issues with you anymore than I already have. How did that job at Wendy's go? I quit due to unchecked workplace harassment. I took all the proper steps and nothing was being done. Fast food is a scam on every level and I'll never take that kind of job again. If we could implement a resource based economy no one would ever have to deal with that kind of shit... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cau Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 I don't trust a single person in this world enough to tell them how I really feel or what I'm feeling. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 31 minutes ago, scoobdog said: Okay... I want to face plant into boobs, but can't because of social distancing. Everything wrong somehow boils down to that. So ... if you're using boobs as a coping mechanism to cope with the anxiety and trauma of the times then we can certainly discuss those things. However in the meantime I can give you a few suggestions to acquire an artificial set. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Artificial just isn't the same, but I appreciate the offer. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 34 minutes ago, Lasty said: I quit due to unchecked workplace harassment. I took all the proper steps and nothing was being done. Fast food is a scam on every level and I'll never take that kind of job again. If we could implement a resource based economy no one would ever have to deal with that kind of shit... Could you show me on the doll where they harassed you? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 33 minutes ago, Cau said: I don't trust a single person in this world enough to tell them how I really feel or what I'm feeling. Do you have any artificial feelings you wish to discuss? More importantly, do you trust yourself enough to be open and honest about your own feelings? I have play doh, sock puppets, and coloring pencils in my play therapy bag if that would make you more comfortable Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kudasai Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 (edited) I feel... Spoiler Edited July 13, 2020 by Kudasai Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cau Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Just now, Vamped said: Do you have any artificial feelings you wish to discuss? More importantly, do you trust yourself enough to be open and honest about your own feelings? I have play doh, sock puppets, and coloring pencils in my play therapy bag if that would make you more comfortable Nice try, I'm never going to give you the information you need to take me down! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wacky1980 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 i need to poop Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 3 minutes ago, scoobdog said: Artificial just isn't the same, but I appreciate the offer. We could also expore some VR options if you're open to that. I have to warn you though that the models have unrealistic facial proportions especially in terms of eye size. We could work our way up to getting completely comfortable over the course of a few sessions. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 2 hours ago, cyberbully said: I really hate my son's friends on PSN. I feel like they are toxic af....They keep up drama like (sexist) little girls... Your son has a group of online dramarama friends? I wonder where he gets that from 1 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 8 minutes ago, Vamped said: We could also expore some VR options if you're open to that. I have to warn you though that the models have unrealistic facial proportions especially in terms of eye size. We could work our way up to getting completely comfortable over the course of a few sessions. I gotta say, you do good work. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wacky1980 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 12 minutes ago, wacky1980 said: i need to poop nevermind, fixed it myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 14 minutes ago, wacky1980 said: i need to poop Are you having trouble comfortably releasing your stools in public bathrooms? I just want you to know you can feel comfortable discussing any desires, questions, or insecurities surrounding anal stimulation. These feelings you may be experiencing are quite natural and perfectly human. If you would like to explore this with a partner I can certainly facilitate a couple discussion in a manner you feel safe and secure with. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 20 minutes ago, Kudasai said: I feel... Reveal hidden contents Im having trouble accessing this visual representation of your feelings, but I want you to know that any and all feelings you may be dealing are valid and important. You are worthy as a person to have your feelings considered and valued Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 24 minutes ago, Cau said: Nice try, I'm never going to give you the information you need to take me down! So ... I understand you have your own personal experiences that have caused you to create walls around yourself ... perhaps in an effort to safe guard yourself from being hurt by others? I just want you to know that trying to protect yourself from pain is perfectly normal and self preservation is understandable. So when you're ready to discuss any of the reasons you have decided to take such a serious stance on protecting yourself by not letting others in, this thread will be here .... well probably several pages away from where it is now. *please note as you are most definitely already aware of, I do not have mod privileges and am currently unable to protect you from the reactions of others should you choose to share your feelings. However we can most certainly work on how we choose to react. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Naraku4656 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 dying Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wacky1980 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 18 minutes ago, Vamped said: Are you having trouble comfortably releasing your stools in public bathrooms? I just want you to know you can feel comfortable discussing any desires, questions, or insecurities surrounding anal stimulation. These feelings you may be experiencing are quite natural and perfectly human. If you would like to explore this with a partner I can certainly facilitate a couple discussion in a manner you feel safe and secure with. 20 minutes ago, wacky1980 said: nevermind, fixed it myself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cyberbully Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 1 hour ago, Vamped said: So first let me make sure I understand everything correctly. 1. You are feeling some personal frustration about the way this year has been going thus far because nothing really detrimental has happened to you? I would like to say that being able to look back on the unpleasant things that have happened and finding yourself better afterwards is a very admirable quality that not all of us are able to do. As far as worrying about the next storm approaching, having some anxiety about the future is perfectly normal especially in these uncertain times. I would encourage you to take a moment to practice some mindfulness techniques when things are going great. Take some deep breaths and allow yourself to enjoy the calm. You appear to be resilient and that is something not to be taken for granted. 2. You're annoyed at the way in which your son chooses to interact with his friends over PSN. I think this too is a normal reaction every parent who is actually involved and monitoring their children's online activity should feel. Diverting his attention to other activities sounds like an excellent way to scale back on those negative interactions 3. Do you want to talk more about the cake? I'm not seeing anything to suggest you're coping with cake. As long as you're not eating all of it alone in one sitting ... in a dark room ... crying ... naked in xxxxl shirts that you have burst out of it and can no longer put your feet in shoes because the fat and lymphedema of your legs have made wearing shoes impossible. Perhaps I glossed over some points...I've had my fair share of detriment in 2020, but it's all come along with equal...nay, augmented wins. I'm almost getting cocky.....I've had a lot of time to think, and clear a lot of unnecessary shit from my worry plate. Really, I'm just disappointed in my son missing some epic dunks, and I think he's siding with the wrong kid....I know a shady shit when I hear one, but my son assures me that he's got it under control....I mean, he has the talent naturally but like the Basketball coach trying to teach his kid in the old ways and holding him back, I'm forcing him to either learn for the future, or prove to me he deserves respect in his craft. Nah, the cake thing isn't a problem for me as far as gluttony or weight gain...Honestly, I'll get sick of it after a few pieces and realize "Damn, I coulda just got a quarter sheet and I wouldn't be throwing a quarter sheet away.....It's just that I feel like I go grocery shopping high way too often. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 32 minutes ago, wacky1980 said: Things like this are never fixed for good. Please feel free to return when you would like to discuss what I spoke about previously. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 52 minutes ago, Naraku4656 said: dying So ... this is bold statement especially without context. While I do understand that a lot has happened, even if we exclude the state of the world and the pandemic, I think it would be helpful to break this down just a little more. Feeling overwhelmed is quite common and a lot of us are dealing with something very similar. I think some of us tend to focus on what negative is happening and affecting our lives. I think it would be helpful to take a deep breath and think about all the positives you have going for you. It doesn't have to be much, you can start very small. I'm going to recommend you do a little homework and come up with 5 things you are grateful for and while doing so I'm going to ask that you refrain from sighing like an exasperated old lady as this hinders the effects we are looking for. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kudasai Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 1 hour ago, Vamped said: Im having trouble accessing this visual representation of your feelings, but I want you to know that any and all feelings you may be dealing are valid and important. You are worthy as a person to have your feelings considered and valued I wish I could believe that 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Naraku4656 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Just now, Vamped said: So ... this is bold statement especially without context. While I do understand that a lot has happened, even if we exclude the state of the world and the pandemic, I think it would be helpful to break this down just a little more. Feeling overwhelmed is quite common and a lot of us are dealing with something very similar. I think some of us tend to focus on what negative is happening and affecting our lives. I think it would be helpful to take a deep breath and think about all the positives you have going for you. It doesn't have to be much, you can start very small. I'm going to recommend you do a little homework and come up with 5 things you are grateful for and while doing so I'm going to ask that you refrain from sighing like an exasperated old lady as this hinders the effects we are looking for. i've had a bad week. not really all that much good going on to report Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 10 minutes ago, Naraku4656 said: i've had a bad week. not really all that much good going on to report so think small ... really small. For instance ... you're not homeless or strung out on cocaine or riddled with STDs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tsar4 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 11 minutes ago, Vamped said: so think small ... really small. For instance ... you're not homeless or strung out on cocaine or riddled with STDs Is the muppet supposed to be thinking...or smelling its finger? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 28 minutes ago, Kudasai said: I wish I could believe that You should believe it. In fact lets work on that. Now Im going to pat your arm gently but appropriately to help you learn that I am here for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 4 minutes ago, tsar4 said: Is the muppet supposed to be thinking...or smelling its finger? How does narrowing it down to those choices makes you feel? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Naraku4656 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 (edited) 34 minutes ago, Vamped said: so think small ... really small. For instance ... you're not homeless or strung out on cocaine or riddled with STDs meh. the "there are starving kids" approach never worked on me Edited July 13, 2020 by Naraku4656 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tsar4 Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 33 minutes ago, Vamped said: How does narrowing it down to those choices makes you feel? With my hands, as always. Why what do you feel with? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
molarbear Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 6 hours ago, Vamped said: .... fine ... who ate the fucking gum I had in my desk?! Whole pack of Orbitz Sweet mint ... I have like 5 pieces left you little shits I have a theory about this, David The Gnome's Wife left him and he now goes around stealing things This is the excuse I use when I can't find a matching sock after doing laundry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 1 hour ago, Naraku4656 said: meh. the "there are starving kids" approach never worked on me Im not saying look at what makes you better than everyone else, Im saying look at what is positive about your current situation even when your thoughts seem to be dominated by all the negative. Being able to appreciate the good things even during the bad is an exercise in mindfulness and finding your personal strengths. Having your own home, securing a job that allows you to be independent and self sufficient, having the freedom of not being burdened with unwanted children, having a support system of friends and family .... having all of these things while young are positive things that you can be proud of. Or dont. Having a bad week and allowing yourself to fully feel it can be therapeutic in its own way as long as you dont allow yourself to stay in the bad feelings too long. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 1 hour ago, tsar4 said: With my hands, as always. Why what do you feel with? Im going to take a moment to count to 4 and then kindly ask you to get out of my office in this thread GTFO THERE IS NO 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 5 minutes ago, molarbear said: I have a theory about this, David The Gnome's Wife left him and he now goes around stealing things This is the excuse I use when I can't find a matching sock after doing laundry This gnome is petty AF to go in my gum pack and remove all the individually wrapped pieces and leave me 5 in my own desk Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 4 hours ago, cyberbully said: Perhaps I glossed over some points...I've had my fair share of detriment in 2020, but it's all come along with equal...nay, augmented wins. I'm almost getting cocky.....I've had a lot of time to think, and clear a lot of unnecessary shit from my worry plate. Really, I'm just disappointed in my son missing some epic dunks, and I think he's siding with the wrong kid....I know a shady shit when I hear one, but my son assures me that he's got it under control....I mean, he has the talent naturally but like the Basketball coach trying to teach his kid in the old ways and holding him back, I'm forcing him to either learn for the future, or prove to me he deserves respect in his craft. Nah, the cake thing isn't a problem for me as far as gluttony or weight gain...Honestly, I'll get sick of it after a few pieces and realize "Damn, I coulda just got a quarter sheet and I wouldn't be throwing a quarter sheet away.....It's just that I feel like I go grocery shopping high way too often. So ... you seem pretty unpacked here except that you believe you're feeling too arrogant given your circumstances. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 So I think my original plan with this thread was to give everybody a compliment or ... really to tell you something positive or a strength that I, an outsider have noticed about most of you. Ive seen what most of you share and the struggles and doubts you have braved the boards with and for the most part I think you all deserve happiness, support, and the ability to feel that you are worthy as individuals. Im wishing all of you improved mental health because I know its hard out here and sometimes the tiniest bit of kindness has gone a long way for me when Im having a tough time. Sometimes I wish someone would just ask me ... what's wrong and is there something you want to talk about just because. We all have our own personal trauma and I think its good to check in from time to time. (as an internet friend, dont make this weird) 2 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kudasai Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 (edited) 4 hours ago, Vamped said: Im having trouble accessing this visual representation of your feelings, but I want you to know that any and all feelings you may be dealing are valid and important. You are worthy as a person to have your feelings considered and valued Oh shit I didn't realize that the link was janky, I think I fixed it so here how I was originally feeling Spoiler Edited July 13, 2020 by Kudasai 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 6 minutes ago, Vamped said: So I think my original plan with this thread was to give everybody a compliment or ... really to tell you something positive or a strength that I, an outsider have noticed about most of you. Ive seen what most of you share and the struggles and doubts you have braved the boards with and for the most part I think you all deserve happiness, support, and the ability to feel that you are worthy as individuals. Im wishing all of you improved mental health because I know its hard out here and sometimes the tiniest bit of kindness has gone a long way for me when Im having a tough time. Sometimes I wish someone would just ask me ... what's wrong and is there something you want to talk about just because. We all have our own personal trauma and I think its good to check in from time to time. (as an internet friend, dont make this weird) What do you really feel Vamped? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted July 13, 2020 Author Share Posted July 13, 2020 4 minutes ago, scoobdog said: What do you really feel Vamped? This thread isn't about me ... today. Stay tuned in Dumpling Fires for blog posts and complaints at later dates Lol Dumpling Fire ... Im not changing it. 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 Makes it sound even shittier. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DragonSinger Posted July 13, 2020 Share Posted July 13, 2020 17 minutes ago, Kudasai said: Oh shit I didn't realize that the link was janky, I think I fixed it so here how I was originally feeling Hide contents LOL! Holy childhood flashback, Batman. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kudasai Posted July 14, 2020 Share Posted July 14, 2020 3 hours ago, Vamped said: You should believe it. In fact lets work on that. Now Im going to pat your arm gently but appropriately to help you learn that I am here for you. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tsar4 Posted July 14, 2020 Share Posted July 14, 2020 1 hour ago, Vamped said: Im going to take a moment to count to 4 and then kindly ask you to get out of my office in this thread GTFO THERE IS NO 4 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Doom Metal Alchemist Posted July 14, 2020 Share Posted July 14, 2020 My county just got shutdown again and it's bumming me out. Once again, got to tell the bandmates I can't go to practice until things open back up (technically I could, but if things are so bad that we need to be shutdown I don't want to "bring anything home" to my elderly parents). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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