Don't tell me what to do. You got an answer didn't you?
Been there. Not a good feeling. I don't trust you, Zeni, but I don't wish any harm on you, either, and I'm not kidding about the meetings. If you can prove - not just say, but prove- that you're making an effort to be sober, you're going to have a better chance of getting and staying on a transplant list. Whether it be through AA or some other recovery program, your odds are going to be better if you can demonstrate that you're actually making an effort to change what got you to this point. Yeah, you're not drinking now, but odds are you're also generally sicker than a pig now, too. The powers that be need to know that you're not going to just go back out and start drinking again once you feel ok.