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Just now, Naraku4656 said:

dude that's awesome. doing what?

Helping high school students with  writing their personal insight questions applying into to college. Basically to say what they are looking for. I had a panic attack during training tho, not in front of any of the mentees. >__>

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2 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Helping high school students with  writing their personal insight questions applying into to college. Basically to say what they are looking for. I had a panic attack during training tho, not in front of any of the mentees. >__>

i mean i had a panic attack my first week at the job i got when i moved down here in like the first week

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1 minute ago, Naraku4656 said:

i mean i had a panic attack my first week at the job i got when i moved down here in like the first week

I hate talking to people face to face, and like this includes zoom. XD Can't I just talk to everyone in a forum like setting. lol

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1 minute ago, Naraku4656 said:

i panicked because they asked me to do something i didn't know i was going to be doing and knew nothing about

Oh. I panicked, and I kid you not, cause they asked me to email someone else and I kinda started crying. >__> My anxiety is getting worse. <__<

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2 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I hate talking to people face to face, and like this includes zoom. XD Can't I just talk to everyone in a forum like setting. lol

Talking infront of people gives me anxiety too but after you're first couple of times itll feel like a job and you have the power in the exchange so you can set the pace and mood.

Having  the power usually makes my anxiety go away

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4 minutes ago, Vamped said:

Talking infront of people gives me anxiety too but after you're first couple of times itll feel like a job and you have the power in the exchange so you can set the pace and mood.

Having  the power usually makes my anxiety go away

I think it was a moment I was powerless and that when we were training. I've already fell behind training and felt like it was a reprimand type of meeting. I don't know, I feel ridiculous now. I'm just waiting on my supervisor, I feel embarrassed. 

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5 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I think it was a moment I was powerless and that when we were training. I've already fell behind training and felt like it was a reprimand type of meeting. I don't know, I feel ridiculous now. I'm just waiting on my supervisor, I feel embarrassed. 

Its probably fine. My professor told us an internship is the place you want to mess up because everybody knows you're a student and still learning. 

If it makes you feel better day 1 of my undergrad internship I almost knocked over the dialysis machine my very first patient was hooked up to ... so ... I was thoroughly embarrassed 

 

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4 minutes ago, Vamped said:

Its probably fine. My professor told us an internship is the place you want to mess up because everybody knows you're a student and still learning. 

If it makes you feel better day 1 of my undergrad internship I almost knocked over the dialysis machine my very first patient was hooked up to ... so ... I was thoroughly embarrassed 

 

I hope so, I really need to work out how I talk to people. How I deal with my emotions and such. 

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1 hour ago, jackiemarie90 said:

and had a panic attack during it today. XD Someone just kill me pls. I really am a meek weak ass sheep. Now I gotta explain myself to my supervisor at some unknown time this evening. >___> It will be chill. 

You're not weak you've accomplished so much already. Social anxiety is really common esp these days. You can overcome it. You should join an improv group or something. 

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4 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

I hate talking to people face to face, and like this includes zoom. XD Can't I just talk to everyone in a forum like setting. lol

What all will the work environment be like? Will you be working from home, using your own computer or whatever, or will you be working in an office?

The only suggestion I have is if you are working from home, and with your own computer, perhaps you could say your webcam broke or you don't have one? That wouldn't be a long term solution, but it might be enough to buy you a week or two to get used to talking to them online, which could make it a bit easier when you eventually do have to use a webcam?

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Honestly I've always been nervous about talking online to people I don't know in person, more so because I overthink about how my voice sounds. I've asked many folks around me how does my voice sound and they say it's normal or fine or whatever, but when I hear my voice it sounds too weird, though supposedly that's normal since people typically aren't used to hearing their voice outside of them talking.

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On 6/11/2020 at 4:47 PM, jackiemarie90 said:

Oh. I panicked, and I kid you not, cause they asked me to email someone else and I kinda started crying. >__> My anxiety is getting worse. <__<

As long as you’re honest about how you’re feeling, your supervisor will understand.

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