So irresponsibility is your excuse? You didn't discuss birth control, but you certainly didn't talk about having a child, either, when you knew full well you could get pregnant. I honestly don't remember, but I would wager a guess that you were having sex with others around the same time without birth control, as well. We all know your obsession with white people and wanting a half-white baby. He was just the poor sucker that actually got you pregnant.
I see you aren't refuting that you said you'd do it by yourself. That's good, because you know you said it, and I know you said it. Supporting his child isn't the problem. You saying you would support your child by yourself, telling him that, then changing your mind years later after he's moved on IS the problem.
Did I say daily? No. Taking that many once counts as abuse. That's like saying ODing your first time isn't abuse.
Maybe it was a joke, maybe it wasn't, we don't know. But if you abuse drugs, it's not a leap to say you would also sell them.