Lynnrael

i think one of the things i least expected from hrt was colors getting more vivid. like, the sky has more colors, sunlight is more gold and magical looking than it was, green in trees pops in a way i haven't seen since i was a kid, even on rainy days, and everything just kinda seems a little bit more beautiful. i don't know if that's just because I'm happier now or if what people say is true and estrogen actually helped me see colors better, but it's pretty fucking cool

oh lol, i think you might be right

really depends on the drugs, but, me

happy birthday Kitty Katana! she's so cute!

blame Odin. it's his weekday isn't it?

might start making video essays some day, just so i can have an excuse to infodump about stuff i like

my anxieties continue to be false and yet i continue to indulge them. when will i learn? but it's rainy and the sky is pretty so that's nice

well hopefully you'll be nicer to yourself. i know that's not always easy to do though

a counselor once told me "depression is rage turned inward" she was a terrible counselor though, so idk how useful that is. i have been using maladaptive daydreaming to generate energy instead of anger like i used to. may not be healthier but at least it's fun

yeah it does lmao

it's because we're not worth visiting

I'm aware of the efforts to errode access to care for cis women's reproductive health as an attack on reproductive rights and body autonomy in general. you should know many of the same fascists behind that are trying to legislate trans people out of existence in many of the same states. the reason i got access to care isn't because I'm trans, it's because i moved to a state where informed consent is the norm and where planned Parenthood hasn't been gutted. I try to always remind myself how fortunate i am to have been able to do that as much as possible. if i had lived in a state where access to reproductive healthcare was limited in such a way i guarantee you i wouldn't have access to hrt, and would likely have to DIY my transition. cis women who live near me aren't losing care to trans people, and likely have an easier time getting hormone treatment through their primary care physician than a lot of trans people would. our access to care does not take away care from cis women, and when we have access to care cis women are more likely to have access to that same care. i can't seem to find any info in regards to how many cis women can gain access to hormone treatments when needed versus trans woman or trans people in general who can access HRT.m. by sheer numbers I'm willing to bet more cis women get hormones than trans people of all genders do. but that's conjecture and ultimately irrelevant. the people attacking the rights of cis women are also trying to wage genocide on trans people. our fights are against the same people.

i bet a worm giggle would sound really cute

just to clarify, do you mean cis women? and when you said this is why they're pissed, about what exactly do you mean? i also don't mean ill will by either of these questions, i really just want to do my best to understand other people's perspectives on the issues faced when dealing with institutions and systems like those that compose healthcare. i understand if you don't want to answer and i know i can't understand exactly what you mean, but i would like the opportunity to do my best and try. i believe everyone everywhere should have access to all of the care they need, and no one should have to jump through hoops for it. i also believe cis women and all trans people have a common enemy that works to prevent all of us from accessing care we need and solidarity is vital in fighting against those efforts.

think i need some folk punk today. let's see how this gets us through the hard work part of my job

informed consent needs to be the norm. all i had to do was schedule a planned Parenthood appt and i had estrogen a few days later. I'm sorry you had to wait so long.

she likes me! i haven't stopped smiling since they called, she's so freaking cute and cool! idk wtf I'm doing but I'm excited for the future