Lynnrael

finally told my friend i have feelings for him. it went pretty much exactly as i expected, he doesn't feel the same way but also wasn't mean about it, and hopefully my friendship is still intact. it seems like it is, anyways. the weird thing is I feel better. not just like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, but freer and more hopeful than ever expect. i thought this would devastate me but somehow i feel better than i have in a while. maybe it's just cope or maybe i haven't processed it yet, but Im just gonna hold on to this feeling of relief and freedom for as long as i can. it's just weird to me how i can feel embarrassed and proud of myself at the same time.

not a biological parent but I did raise kids for about a decade. I've always hated commercials, but the way todays kids consume media is entirely different from how we consumed it growing up and its really hard to say how it affects them. Youtube commercials are highly targeted but since I do everything I can to not engage with them, the ads I get always miss the mark and seem stupid. I dont know what kind of ads kids are getting through youtube or other platforms show them, but I can say that advertising now is much more insidious and effective than it used to be. influencers and social media have driven up frenzies over all kinds of weird products and bullshit, which is deeply concerning. So if you ask me, advertising today is far more sophisticated and evil today than it ever has been and teaching kids media literacy and critical thinking is more important than ever.

haven't visited the board in a while, thought id check in and see how things are going life has been weird lately. my best friend got dumped, and I got to spend a whole lot of extra time with him which I enjoyed. but now hes talking to an ex from a long time ago, and I hate it. she was toxic af and awful for him, and she manipulated him and strung him along for a while when we were younger. now shes back and I see the same effects she had on him back then. I hate it, and I hate her, and the worst part is that most of what I hate is how jealous I am of the effect she has on him. I can't tell if I'm just bitter or if my concern is actually rooted in how much she could hurt him and how much is just me being a dumb jealous bitch about it. still, life is ok, and things aren't terrible. a cute guy texted me yesterday and that cheered me up quite a bit lol having a few drinks tonight. lets see how the boards have shaped up since i've been gone

this is exactly what I'm doing rn

I'm paying to get rid of them, still a ways to go before I'm done with laser but it's way better than it used to be i like my eyebrows though. i didn't really mess with them

I'm still alive, got new glasses and piercings, they're all purple! I'm happy with them

honestly that's fair

I met someone on valentines day and got a date... it was a cop, and a court date for a traffic ticket

well, of course i think the guy in the video is an ableist piece of crap it also demonstrates the way right wing rhetoric has leaned into ableism. it's important to note is ableism is also a key component of their attacks on other marginalized groups, and that as conditions get worse for those groups they will likely also get worse for neurodivergent and disabled people. this is because these forms of oppression intersect. the power structures that embody oppression also create the social hierarchies that form the basis of conservative world views/self worth and the power of privileged groups. conservatives who engage in this behavior are often called reactionaries because they are reacting to the "threat" that liberation poses to entrenched power structures and social hierarchies. i don't think we're going to see a civil war, i think we're far more likely to see some kind of fascist coup that Democrats and liberals will effectively do nothing to stop. though such a coup isn't guaranteed, we'll have an idea of how likely that is to occur after the election. I'm not worried about violence if they lose, more so if they win. when they say they want a civil war, they are just saying they want to engage in reactionary violence, they're not going to try to take power by force. the real danger are the various pathways and loop holes they can and will use to continue gaining power. every part of the government and electoral system is designed to prevent the people from dismantling entrenched power structures, so the mechanics of this system will always favor reactionaries and provide them some semi legitimate pathway to gaining more power. this is the real danger because if they do it legally the Democratic party and liberals in general will be unwilling to challenge the legitimacy of that power with force and will waste years trying to find some legal way to regain power that won't ultimately damage the institutions they worship. I'm not sure what we can actually do aside from working to build the networks we need to resist this kind of oppression.

I'm still alive and stuff. dysphoria still sucks ass, but it's getting better bit by bit.

existential dread is not something i expected to get from the lion king but here we are

i can't remember if this has been posted before but it's good

hopefully it's charged