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1. I don't like talking about it but I am Bipolar.

2. In light of certain events happening exactly a year ago this time, I've been emotionally unstable.

3. I don't take my medication for my Bipolar anymore because of various reasons.

4. I felt slighted that my involvement on here has been underappreciated and this is not the case.

 

 

I am sorry.

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I never thought you were acting like a prick. I do think that you might need to simply hold your horse for a week and kind of settle out, then make a reasonable decision that you discuss with all involved parties.  In private, airing it out in public won't do anyone any good.

 

Anyways, good luck with whatever you decide to do. :)

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welp, lucky for you, i've been living my whole life with an unmedicated bipolar person! >:D

 

you good... just don't go calling me the seed of the serpent any time soon, kay? ;):P

you're the daughter of a Shepard and your father smells of turpentine.
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I barely notice u. But hey, welcome to the Bipolar Club!

 

I'm not new here. I have had it my entire life along side of ADHD and Oppositonal Defiance Disorder. It has remained the least symptomatic of my shit, but as of the last... few months no. Not at all. It's up at #1 and weed isn't helping it like it helps my add and odd.

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1. I don't like talking about it but I am Bipolar.

2. In light of certain events happening exactly a year ago this time, I've been emotionally unstable.

3. I don't take my medication for my Bipolar anymore because of various reasons.

4. I felt slighted that my involvement on here has been underappreciated and this is not the case.

 

 

I am sorry.

 

Youve been quite unhinged lately.

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I never thought you were acting like a prick. I do think that you might need to simply hold your horse for a week and kind of settle out, then make a reasonable decision that you discuss with all involved parties.  In private, airing it out in public won't do anyone any good.

 

Anyways, good luck with whatever you decide to do. :)

 

 

I do intend on starting a forum and have - but I did not want it to be this place. 4 people messaged me about creating a split version of this site and I immediately jumped ship. The forum I'm making has nothing to do with this place as it will contain people from the start that are outside of the Asmb. I was acting irrationally and was ready to fuck over two groups of people that know nothing about each other.

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I do intend on starting a forum and have - but I did not want it to be this place. 4 people messaged me about creating a split version of this site and I immediately jumped ship. The forum I'm making has nothing to do with this place as it will contain people from the start that are outside of the Asmb. I was acting irrationally and was ready to fuck over two groups of people that know nothing about each other.

 

  The important thing here is, you stopped yourself from screwing over two groups of people. That shows maturity and the ability to see a situation for what it is and how you can act in the best interests of all.

It seems to me like you are a bit manic right now, so maybe get a cheesesteak and  :420: for a bit, then you can see things with a clearer head.  :)

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I didn't know that about you. I understand bipolar very well. I am sorry you have to deal with such bull shit in your life. Meds suck a BBC while simultaneously getting a larger, more vany-throbbing/infested with hiv/syphilitic and demonically possessed/on fire BBC getting jammed up your ass hole.

 

We understand.

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There should definitely be some dialogue over #4. You worked hard on some things that got rolled back and that would suck for anyone. Even tho you overreacted I never thought you were being a dick for being mad about it, but from what I heard it seems like something that can be worked out. I'd like to know more about what happened and what has been happening behind the scenes. Like I'd probably donate more $$$ if I knew what the staff were doing.

Well... okay.

 

Forget everything from before. Goal is for me to help out on IPB when this switches eventually, but at the same time I have need of hosting again for a number of reasons. One being my 3d work, one being a group of people that aren't from here want something different, and another being a bunch of people on here wanted something more [as] fan official. Now that being said I will still be looking for my own hosting on Thursday, and probably the first thing I'm putting up is a forum. It's not that big of a deal and anyone is free to do whatever they want. It is not going to look like this place at all. This is all that was ever supposed to be, I didn't mean for it to get out of hand like this.

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Excellent, Viper. Now that you've accepted that you have a problem, you really have to scrap this whole "IBBabbling/Revenge Forum" idea.

My problems are nearly non-existent compared to yours bud.
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basically atm am getting thoughts on the situation from the admins, mods and volunteers.  I've talked to Viper, and we exchanged some ideas on what to do/where to go from here.  I told him I was going to widen that circle a bit and get feedback from the rest of the crew, see what they thought.  Also reading the board just to see what everybody's general thoughts are.

 

So atm sort of waiting and reading.  and then when it feels like everybody's weighed in, I'll take all that and talk it over with Viper and see what we're gonna do.

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basically atm am getting thoughts on the situation from the admins, mods and volunteers.  I've talked to Viper, and we exchanged some ideas on what to do/where to go from here.  I told him I was going to widen that circle a bit and get feedback from the rest of the crew, see what they thought.  Also reading the board just to see what everybody's general thoughts are.

 

So atm sort of waiting and reading.  and then when it feels like everybody's weighed in, I'll take all that and talk it over with Viper and see what we're gonna do.

 

what exactly do you mean? Letting him back in good graces? Or are we talking about petty cosmetic things?

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what exactly do you mean? Letting him back in good graces? Or are we talking about petty cosmetic things?

I have actually said I only want the cosmetic stuff. I don't want part of the other shit.

The html, css and shit for the theme for IPB, the username icons (which will work btw on IPB I know exactly how to do it). Changing username's colors and custom ranks that sort of thing. There's more control on IPB. Imagine you have a template to basically edit the physical appearance of anyone's forum profile. That's what IPB has. I can directly edit the username color, put an image next to it, animate it, all sorts of fancy shit. I have an idea about all those things too to really make the forum readable and pop.

Comparing what I know about IPB -  I literally know nothing about smf  where as I have written my own mini plugins for IPB, 3 to be exact. Something I suck at on here.

 

 

 

 

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Another thing is Luuv has talked about adding traffic to the site multiple times - I could actually do that in a heart beat but it's not up to me.

I'm saying like..... hmm..

Maybe 20+ extra active users a day and a total of an extra 40-50 logins a month? About 10 of them are people pretty close to me - a bunch of my gamers friends who dislike things like reddit and are more traditional. That was part of the reason I'm making my own forum, but maybe... just maybe if I can bring people here I won't have to waste any money.

I just never bothered asking considering we're a group of people we all know, but recently Rogue has brought someone to the board that's from the outside... so..

.times changing?

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I've brought coworkers in to read the fanfictions, if that counts for anything.

I think it's up to Luuv if he wants outside groups.

 

One thing came of that discord convo last night. It's worth mentioning luuv, but I guess it would be fine if we brought in outside groups, "if they're not cunts" - as Stilgar said.

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1. I don't like talking about it but I am Bipolar.

2. In light of certain events happening exactly a year ago this time, I've been emotionally unstable.

3. I don't take my medication for my Bipolar anymore because of various reasons.

4. I felt slighted that my involvement on here has been underappreciated and this is not the case.

 

 

I am sorry.

 

Gonna go with an apology accepted on this one.

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what exactly do you mean? Letting him back in good graces? Or are we talking about petty cosmetic things?

 

from what he's told me, he doesn't want any deep access or anything, he just wants to get back to having fun again and do stuff like user icons and cosmetic things on the IPB.

 

 

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1. I don't like talking about it but I am Bipolar.

 

 

Thought so. That explains a lot. It doesn't excuse anything, not for fuggs or Phillies or me - or you. But it does explain a lot.

 

I understand that you don't take the meds - we've all got med horror stories. I hate them - I miss the rush of energy and creativity that comes with hypomania. But man, you've got to do something. You're young, you're reasonably intelligent, you've got skills, and  you're reasonably personable. But you are so fucking erratic; yes, it's due to cycling, but most people can't tolerate it. You're going to lose jobs, friends, lovers, and self-respect - if you haven't already.

 

Please, for your own sake, do what you have to do to take care of yourself, even if you hate it. And dammit, listen when I lecture - I'm old enough to date your father.

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Another thing is Luuv has talked about adding traffic to the site multiple times - I could actually do that in a heart beat but it's not up to me.

I'm saying like..... hmm..

Maybe 20+ extra active users a day and a total of an extra 40-50 logins a month? About 10 of them are people pretty close to me - a bunch of my gamers friends who dislike things like reddit and are more traditional. That was part of the reason I'm making my own forum, but maybe... just maybe if I can bring people here I won't have to waste any money.

I just never bothered asking considering we're a group of people we all know, but recently Rogue has brought someone to the board that's from the outside... so..

.times changing?

 

I'm waiting on KN to get us on solid server ground before we try to go for more users.

 

And at least atm, I'm thinking about a bunch of different stuff. 

 

Basically from the beginning, we weren't going to go for any big new spooj of users until KN upgraded the server, which he was planning to do.

 

Now it looks like that will coincide with the IPB.  So we'll probably wait til that's all up before we start newb initiatives.

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In the meantime though, we seem to get some new users - like a few a week or so.  And then some - like 10+ bots a day trying to sign up.

 

But basically there's no real rules on who or what or how many people anybody can invite.

 

The plans we always discuss in terms of inviting new users are more about like when we start reaching out for more users via SEO and other such strategeries.

 

As far as just casual invites go, we really don't have any say in that.

 

Although, sometimes with the botscreen up, people might have to poke us to get an SN approved, if it is somehow unfortunate enough to get caught up in the botnet.

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I've been trying to get an irl friend to join to contribute to political threads but he's gay and one night​ we were drinking heavily and I was shitposting in a thread about homophobia and he asked what I was doing and I explained what the thread topic was and how it was going and what the general consensus of the topic was and he decided he didn't want to post here based mostly on that. Then out of anger I started telling other users they drink piss out and after that he especially didn't want to join.

 

I did use one of his jokes in a post though and when I showed him the dumb response it got we laughed really hard at the person who posted it so I think there is still hope.

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we weren't going to go for any big new spooj of users until KN upgraded the server

a lot of this, please.

 

it seems like it only takes a small burst of page requests (<20) to lag the shit out of the db. is kn running this on a home pc?

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from what he's told me, he doesn't want any deep access or anything, he just wants to get back to having fun again and do stuff like user icons and cosmetic things on the IPB.

  Yeah. I'm staying out of the politics. But would appreciate to continue knowing what's going on here. You pulling me from the planning board contributed to my emotion as well. I didn't foresee that.
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Thought so. That explains a lot. It doesn't excuse anything, not for fuggs or Phillies or me - or you. But it does explain a lot.

 

I understand that you don't take the meds - we've all got med horror stories. I hate them - I miss the rush of energy and creativity that comes with hypomania. But man, you've got to do something. You're young, you're reasonably intelligent, you've got skills, and  you're reasonably personable. But you are so fucking erratic; yes, it's due to cycling, but most people can't tolerate it. You're going to lose jobs, friends, lovers, and self-respect - if you haven't already.

 

Please, for your own sake, do what you have to do to take care of yourself, even if you hate it. And dammit, listen when I lecture - I'm old enough to date your father.

I've lost all of those and I cycle through groups of friend's like clockwork, though my most recent group I have solidified with because they know everything about me for the most part. And yea thanks for the terms of endearment.  -_'  Need that shit right now.

 

Lol and leave my former hippy bell-bottom wearing, afro headed, disco dancer dad out of this

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IPB is so dope I can create dynamic backgrounds that move and interact for each sub-forum and tons of other things that I've done for the software before the AMAZING thing is the skins all sacle... so that will load on cell, table and desktop all together in tandem. Part of this was me being incredibly frustrated working with SMF as it fucking sucks ass.

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In the case of the new users, I will hold off until we switch to IPB, I might also need a sub-forum put up for them that I can manage and moderate because there will be at least 20-30 people that could possibly come looking for something specific.

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i've only just spent about two minutes looking at the ipb or ips, whatev, site.  i feel like it might possibly, maybe, with a heaping helping of customization, feel nicer than the theme on nodebb (which i actually grew to appreciate over time). as long as it functions on this side of the insanity line in comparison to nodebb and ue, i'm down.

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