nameraka

dumpster + fire

https://www.reddit.com/r/im14andthisisdeep/ wrong forum

it's different with everyone i guess. i envy people who can drink casually. i've just never had a lot of control when it comes to booze. other substances i've tried haven't been a problem, and i don't have any other compulsive tendencies. maybe it's just chemical with me.

and i might. a month is just a reachable target so i don't psyche myself out.

you seem fickle. i don't need that in my life.

i agree. the problem is that my drinking has spilled over into the week. every week for like a month.

not legal here.

yeah, i have the same dichotomy going on. i know it's bad for me and moreover that i'll feel better once i've quit for awhile. meanwhile, though, my body will continue to crave it. if i can get it weened off, i'll be fine. at least until i slip up again and then i'll have the hangover from hell.

i haven't been able to sleep without a half a fifth of scotch in my system for like three weeks. thinkin' it's time to slow down...

Great. you also failed your health inspection. We’re shutting you down.

Honestly, I started in history. I found I was more able to broach philosophical topics within the context of English, but I could also use practical skills like writing as a hook. Philosophy might have been the best fit for me personally, but the type of person who would sign up for a philosophy class wouldn’t really need what I was selling. Everyone has to take English.

i like trying to present information to people that they hadn't thought of in ways that force them to question basic assumptions. i think this is why i went into teaching, and specifically english. i realized pretty early on that the rules that govern society are mostly arbitrary. i may not be able to fix what's wrong with society, but at least i can wake people up to the idea that things don't have to be the way they are. also tacos.

yeah. sleeping is going to be tough for a few nights. i usually go with a valerian root tea. something stronger might be in order this time, though.

um... do you know if she's seeing anyone?

whelp you're as good as dead now. time to start writing a will and planning how you want them to put you in the ground.

i see. has she always been dead?

i'd like to. would really take the edge off the lack of alcohol in my system.

great. then can you explain the dead hooker in the bathroom, please?

i quit for about 8 months two years ago just to kind of get myself under control. feel it may be time to take another one. shorter, maybe a month or two. i just feel like i'm starting to use it as a crutch again. i've also noticed i have a hard time sleeping without alcohol in my system. any advice from those who've done it to help get through that first week?

I work for the health department. Is your manager here?

have we started yet?

86/132 using the metric scale.

yeah, but i mean, that's like literally what you said...

wait. do you mean that figuratively? i am literally so confused right now...