oh.....well then I suggest you find a stone mill and get to work for the next 10 yrs after which you will have the large muscles and inexplicable combat skills to avenge/survive/and otherwise totally own your world...
this is even more awesome when you consider that this guy has well known politicians assassinated in broad day light....it would be nothing to find and cap some smiley face sitting in an apartment somewhere making youtube videos....
for real though....imagine it, not that long ago, this would be it....full life lived, children had and out of the nest, and here come the barbarian horde just over the ridge....