lmao, I totally get where you're coming from....and if you're not really into whatever it is, embarrassing yourself on a regular basis till you get good is a fucked experience
I was going to say something about the band, but I didn't know if it was a sore spot or what.....you seem pretty chill about it though....are you set on moving forward with your own project next or will you consider joining someone else's band if they have an opening?