jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 I don’t belong here. I mean, I belong here, but not at this fancy school. But I gots no home to go to. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ginguy Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 You belong there since you got in without having to bribe anyone. If you are really feeling out of place, speak with a counselor. They are there to help you graduate, so take advantage of it. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 No you don't, I struggles with these same insecurities when I was younger....In fact, I sit up some nights thinking about retarded shit I've done that even though I feel no one else remembers, I defeinitely remember and still feel like "wtf, why did I do that" like the time my friend had studio time to record his song, and the shit was going nowhere...So I jumped on the mic and started rapping. No one seemed to care, and my friends was just sitting back writing in his pad, and we all had fun.....But when I got home I was like "omfg, wtf is wrong with you....They all hate you now" I have literally hundreds....NO LIE....HUNDREDS of these stories and the keep me awake at how awkward I'm "think" I made situations. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Author Share Posted October 26, 2019 3 minutes ago, Ginguy said: You belong there since you got in without having to bribe anyone. If you are really feeling out of place, speak with a counselor. They are there to help you graduate, so take advantage of it. Appointments are 2 weeks in advance because of midterms lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Author Share Posted October 26, 2019 4 minutes ago, André Toulon said: No you don't, I struggles with these same insecurities when I was younger....In fact, I sit up some nights thinking about retarded shit I've done that even though I feel no one else remembers, I defeinitely remember and still feel like "wtf, why did I do that" like the time my friend had studio time to record his song, and the shit was going nowhere...So I jumped on the mic and started rapping. No one seemed to care, and my friends was just sitting back writing in his pad, and we all had fun.....But when I got home I was like "omfg, wtf is wrong with you....They all hate you now" I have literally hundreds....NO LIE....HUNDREDS of these stories and the keep me awake at how awkward I'm "think" I made situations. Then how do we get through it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 7 minutes ago, André Toulon said: No you don't, I struggles with these same insecurities when I was younger....In fact, I sit up some nights thinking about retarded shit I've done that even though I feel no one else remembers, I defeinitely remember and still feel like "wtf, why did I do that" like the time my friend had studio time to record his song, and the shit was going nowhere...So I jumped on the mic and started rapping. No one seemed to care, and my friends was just sitting back writing in his pad, and we all had fun.....But when I got home I was like "omfg, wtf is wrong with you....They all hate you now" I have literally hundreds....NO LIE....HUNDREDS of these stories and the keep me awake at how awkward I'm "think" I made situations. I wanna hear u rap 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 4 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Then how do we get through it? Drugs. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fuggstop Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 19 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: I don’t belong here. I mean, I belong here, but not at this fancy school. But I gots no home to go to. If they didnt think you belong there they wouldn't have accepted you 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 1 minute ago, Poof said: I wanna hear u rap Sponges hosted a rap battle back in the day....I don't know if I still have the videos though. I had a group in college, but wht I posted on ASMB was just trash.....And I'm definitely not doing a new one. If I run across it I'll post it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 23 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: I don’t belong here. I mean, I belong here, but not at this fancy school. But I gots no home to go to. Why don't you feel u belong there? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Author Share Posted October 26, 2019 5 minutes ago, André Toulon said: Drugs. I need to get more and I think I lost my vape. I’m such an airhead lately it makes me not want to leave the room. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 3 minutes ago, André Toulon said: Sponges hosted a rap battle back in the day....I don't know if I still have the videos though. I had a group in college, but wht I posted on ASMB was just trash.....And I'm definitely not doing a new one. If I run across it I'll post it I think maybe I saw then now that u mention it. Bc i saved sponges' bars. I still have them Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 4 minutes ago, Poof said: I think maybe I saw then now that u mention it. Bc i saved sponges' bars. I still have them Yeah, that's why I forgot about them, just tried to find it....Something is wrong with the Video function on my FB.....I can't access any of my vides, but they are definetely there....Just trapped in limbo. I remember now because I was looking for the Packard call vid from 2016 and had to dig through my HD to get it....I can't see my own FB shit in video Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 2 minutes ago, André Toulon said: Yeah, that's why I forgot about them, just tried to find it....Something is wrong with the Video function on my FB.....I can't access any of my vides, but they are definetely there....Just trapped in limbo. I remember now because I was looking for the Packard call vid from 2016 and had to dig through my HD to get it....I can't see my own FB shit in video Oh I love the packard call vid ❤️ Lets start a rap group. I wanna rap Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 3 minutes ago, Poof said: Oh I love the packard call vid ❤️ Lets start a rap group. I wanna rap We're gonna be fire 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Author Share Posted October 26, 2019 25 minutes ago, fuggstop said: If they didnt think you belong there they wouldn't have accepted you It’s hard being alone at here. I’m akward around friends, don’t know how to ask people to hang out with me. And everyone is talking about their families and I’m still don’t have one atm. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jackiemarie90 Posted October 26, 2019 Author Share Posted October 26, 2019 22 minutes ago, Poof said: Why don't you feel u belong there? Cause I got bad grades, I keep losing and forgetting things, cause I’m not on top of my homework. Idk why shouldn’t I leave at this point? Answer cause I got no home Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 45 minutes ago, André Toulon said: We're gonna be fire Winning formula I'm just tired of guys rapping about me i wanna rap about them Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 38 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Cause I got bad grades, I keep losing and forgetting things, cause I’m not on top of my homework. Idk why shouldn’t I leave at this point? Answer cause I got no home I don't get that answer. College is a super expensive place to just be a home. Study harder and do better. Academics first then socialize 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RainyDayJizz#35 Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 37 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Cause I got bad grades, I keep losing and forgetting things, cause I’m not on top of my homework. Idk why shouldn’t I leave at this point? Answer cause I got no home Use having nowhere to go as motivation to push forward. Work through your shit, or get a job that helps you find a place to go. Like, fuck the social aspect. Just let that happen around you. I've always been really comfortable alone, so I dunno if you feel you need people around. It can help cope with stress but you stress about that too, lol. For now keep doing what you need to do in school, but think seriously about what direction you want to go and figure out how to get there. I honestly wish I would have studied auto repair in college, they get paid well and I love working with my hands. Every time I've messed with a car I've enjoyed it and I can change a tire in under ten minutes easy. Probably closer to five. But i went and studied physics, and when it was time to find a job it was math teacher, and when my record and inability to talk myself up looked like three more years of school and it had already been too long. While i was digging out i got an invite to a big city and i was able to make a life here, because i know i can be skilled at any job i get. The problem has always been getting them. Anyway, you have time to figure this out. Everyone belongs in school if they want to be there. I can't jump the hoops, they were built by idiots. Many people can. You should probably figure out whether it's what you want to do or if you just want to have a life. A modest life isn't a disappointment. If you can manage one that you want it can be a comfort. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 4 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: I don’t belong here. I mean, I belong here, but not at this fancy school. But I gots no home to go to. Take it from me. You definitely belong. You are Pac12 quality through and through. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ginguy Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 17 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: Appointments are 2 weeks in advance because of midterms lol That's fine, make one. If nothing else post here and you can vent. There are few (very few) people here that aren't 100% a dick and will at least listen to you REEEEEEEEEEE if that's what you need. Remember that you worked your way into this school. You didn't bribe anyone to get in, which means the school admissions office feels that you meet the criteria for admittance and they feel that you can complete the course work needed to graduate. Schools reputations are valued highly, if a school has a high drop-out rate it reflects badly on the school. They aren't in the business of admitting kids to watch them drop out, they are in the business of admitting kids to get them graduated and into well-paying professions so the alumni club can call them up and ask for money (that the grads don't have cause student loan payments but....). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Distortedreasoning Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 i think you do belong. i do wanna encourage you to continue your schooling. its been a long road and youre almost there! but theres clearly something that youre missing. and i think you find out what that is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cau Posted October 26, 2019 Share Posted October 26, 2019 Maybe you just dumb as hell. And that's okay. 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted October 27, 2019 Share Posted October 27, 2019 22 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: It’s hard being alone at here. I’m akward around friends, don’t know how to ask people to hang out with me. And everyone is talking about their families and I’m still don’t have one You fucking belong there Jackie! You're smart, beautiful, and kind you get your ass out there and be great! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted October 27, 2019 Share Posted October 27, 2019 2 hours ago, Cau said: Maybe you just dumb as hell. And that's okay. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NapalmDeath Machine Posted October 27, 2019 Share Posted October 27, 2019 Radiohead should be your favorite band. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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