Maybe goldfish hate brim...
... Maybe brim eat goldfish....
.... Maybe those brim ate the goldfishes' mom...
.... Maybe they get a sense of satisfaction watching the brim disemboweled...
Sometimes, people that love us can still hold us back unintentionally. Circumstances can make things untenable, so you should not feel guilt about it and you not feeling guilty should not be construed as disrespecting her or what she meant to you.
The question is not "Why not?", it's "Why?" Why do you need to have someone else? Relationships aren't supposed to be crutches, they're supposed to be partnerships where both people end up better for it.
Hey @ghostrek: no one fucking cares you're lonely because you won't do anything about it. Even Fuggs thinks you're shtick is tired, and she makes beating a dead horse an art form.