Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 I used to party w/her all the time and we'd buy and sell drugs to each other She died 2 years ago. I only even know bc I'm looking thru facebook and her page is memorialized which explains why jake has been sober for 2 years. I didn't think he would ever stop I didn't realize how much time passed since I last looked up everyone 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
PhilosipherStoned Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 Sorry to hear. I've had plenty of that shit to deal with even before covid season. Thankfully no one else added to it from the virus yet, but it still makes this shit extra depressing for me hearing about a lot of people losing family from it. 😷 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cyberbully Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 Meh, wait until you're 40....ive lost at least 6 homies this year. Eventually you have ti stop or at least slow down 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Author Share Posted December 20, 2020 38 minutes ago, PhilosipherStoned said: Sorry to hear. I've had plenty of that shit to deal with even before covid season. Thankfully no one else added to it from the virus yet, but it still makes this shit extra depressing for me hearing about a lot of people losing family from it. 😷 yea me too. I've lost so many people and she def is the type. Like the type where it's not tragic bc of how she was. Esp w/her sense of humor about things like this. She intimidated me w/her use and the way she associated w/ppl. Like she made me feel like I didn't know what I was doing and that I was going to die or get arrested. So I guess it just feels weird that shes dead and I'm not. I really liked this bitch. It's a very numb sorrow. Like I know I'm not going to cry but I'll be thinking about her all the time for the foreseeable future. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ghostrek Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 sorry to hear that also because it's just sad when someone realizes a friend died 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Author Share Posted December 20, 2020 33 minutes ago, cyberbully said: Meh, wait until you're 40....ive lost at least 6 homies this year. Eventually you have ti stop or at least slow down It is a bad year but 6 seems like a lot. Thats strange to me. My experience it feels like more of us died young, and theres less deaths as I get older. Speaking about pre-porn party friends of course.. W/porn girls it's just like a steady loss. Which is really unnerving how constant and consistent the deaths are. And the fact that so many are murders. And less fans/clients do it than you'd think. Like fans and clients def do kill porn girls but idk something about being in porn either makes you attract ppl in your life who will kill you or makes ppl just wanna kill u. It's like 1/3 ODs 1/3 suicides 1/3 murders. Like before I started I knew porn girls died a lot. But I imagined it to be like 90% ODs/suicides and at most maybe 10% murders. It's just way more than I imagined. It's like wake up and hear so-and-so died and ask "How?" "Well this guy dismembered her and burned her body in the forest." "... .... well... FUCK... was it a fan?" "nah. Roommate" "ah, ok.. thought it might be a crazed fan" "Nope" "well if youll excuse me I'm gonna go stare off into space for a lil while" 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Author Share Posted December 20, 2020 40 minutes ago, ghostrek said: sorry to hear that also because it's just sad when someone realizes a friend died thanks ghosty Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlackNoir Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 (edited) 19 minutes ago, Poof said: It is a bad year but 6 seems like a lot. I didn't want to quote the whole thing and stretch the page, but my assumption with Porn actresses is it's part jealousy, because they are confident enough to have sex on camera and I assume part of it is that people have this really shitty idea that sex workers/porn industry people aren't really people. EDIT: Oh, it's a lot just because all of these weren't murders....I don't count it when one of my friends gets laid out in the streets because I understand never leaving the streets, but if you're still this dedicated to showing the hood your nuts as a career, well...It's gonna happen. (I know at least 3 dude got laid out this year, but fuck em.) This was different because none of those 6 were street dudes. Family men with jobs who still had "habits".....And since I'm not super nosey, I don't know the causes of some....Covid, maybe...or just really shitty lifestyle choices. Edited December 20, 2020 by BlackNoir 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nameraka Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 (edited) good on you for befriending the differently life-abled. oh. and sorry for your loss and stuff. Edited December 20, 2020 by nameraka 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Author Share Posted December 20, 2020 (edited) 8 hours ago, BlackNoir said: I didn't want to quote the whole thing and stretch the page, but my assumption with Porn actresses is it's part jealousy, because they are confident enough to have sex on camera and I assume part of it is that people have this really shitty idea that sex workers/porn industry people aren't really people. EDIT: Oh, it's a lot just because all of these weren't murders....I don't count it when one of my friends gets laid out in the streets because I understand never leaving the streets, but if you're still this dedicated to showing the hood your nuts as a career, well...It's gonna happen. (I know at least 3 dude got laid out this year, but fuck em.) This was different because none of those 6 were street dudes. Family men with jobs who still had "habits".....And since I'm not super nosey, I don't know the causes of some....Covid, maybe...or just really shitty lifestyle choices. I was wondering if maybe some were covid / if you knew the cause. Just seems like a lot of ODs depending on how many people you know. Like I lost contact with pretty much everyone by now. Like I said this girl died 2 years ago and I didn't even know. Still tho it feels like as I got older there were less and less ODs. I unno Edited December 20, 2020 by Poof 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 20, 2020 Author Share Posted December 20, 2020 3 hours ago, nameraka said: good on you for befriending the differently life-abled. oh. and sorry for your loss and stuff. yes thank you 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cyberbully Posted December 20, 2020 Share Posted December 20, 2020 25 minutes ago, Poof said: I was wondering if maybe some were covid / if you knew the cause. Just seems like a lot of ODs depending on how many people you know. Like I lost contact with pretty much everyone by now. Like I said this girl died 2 years ago and I didn't even know. Still tho it feels like as I got older there were less and less ODs. I unno Well I'm not arguing. It probably has been less for you, but as I people I know, they are dying from not just directly ODing but like Big Willie was still tooting powder and popping e like he was 15 and he died of a heart attack in his sleep at 40. But as i said, with others...I just know how they partied....The death could have been something else but i didn't dig Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 That is a pretty awful way to find out someone you knew was dead. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 1 minute ago, scoobdog said: That is a pretty awful way to find out someone you knew was dead. is it? what difference does it make Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 1 minute ago, Poof said: is it? what difference does it make Well, there is going to be some trauma when a person goes from being alive in your memory to being dead, especially if that person means something to you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 1 minute ago, scoobdog said: Well, there is going to be some trauma when a person goes from being alive in your memory to being dead, especially if that person means something to you. maybe im too dead inside myself to feel anything 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 Just now, Poof said: maybe im too dead inside myself to feel anything Maybe Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 another weird ass scoob like and why is scoob even talking to me anyway Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlackNoir Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 4 hours ago, Poof said: another weird ass scoob like and why is scoob even talking to me anyway This is why I don't give many likes and I only post in derision. Scoob is just trying to be supportive, and even though I've picked up on the whole 'I don't want your sympathy, I want your attention" vibe behind your posts...I still wouldn't try to feign empathy in a situation I know nothing about. Scoob does, because that's him and has been for at least the decade i've known him Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ric Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 I glanced at the threads and thought it said your friend is back from the dead. So the zombie apocalypse hasn't started then..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 7 hours ago, BlackNoir said: This is why I don't give many likes and I only post in derision. Scoob is just trying to be supportive, and even though I've picked up on the whole 'I don't want your sympathy, I want your attention" vibe behind your posts...I still wouldn't try to feign empathy in a situation I know nothing about. Scoob does, because that's him and has been for at least the decade i've known him Is that good or bad no sympathy but attention? And w/scoob its different he doesnt txt me back anymore which i get but its weird that he will talk on the boards still Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 6 hours ago, Ric said: I glanced at the threads and thought it said your friend is back from the dead. So the zombie apocalypse hasn't started then..... If she does go zomber im going to chain her up and play videogames w/her like in the end of shaun of the dead Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 8 minutes ago, Poof said: Is that good or bad no sympathy but attention? And w/scoob its different he doesnt txt me back anymore which i get but its weird that he will talk on the boards still Neither good nor bad. It's a preference and what you want out of your board experience. As far as soon goes, I don't know exactly you methods of contacting him, but giving the benefit of the doubt, he has al ol lady and maybe he had to block you to maintain peace. Tho I would think he would tell you here if that were the case. But I really came to this thread to tell you, another one gone and this time I asked but I felt better about asking since my cousin pmd me and I was close to this dude....Hearing it was diabetes makes me feel better because he wasn't into doing drugs...he sold them and was a follower of the don't get high on your own supply rule... But he drank like a fish and anytime we hung out, it was a test for our livers so hearing it wasn't "directly" linked to drinking, I'll rest better 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 21 minutes ago, André Toulon said: Neither good nor bad. It's a preference and what you want out of your board experience. As far as soon goes, I don't know exactly you methods of contacting him, but giving the benefit of the doubt, he has al ol lady and maybe he had to block you to maintain peace. Tho I would think he would tell you here if that were the case. But I really came to this thread to tell you, another one gone and this time I asked but I felt better about asking since my cousin pmd me and I was close to this dude....Hearing it was diabetes makes me feel better because he wasn't into doing drugs...he sold them and was a follower of the don't get high on your own supply rule... But he drank like a fish and anytime we hung out, it was a test for our livers so hearing it wasn't "directly" linked to drinking, I'll rest better Well diabetes you can get from mainlining cheeseburgers so is it an addiction all the same? We're all dying from a vice or an addiction. And i mean if he was an alcoholic thats absolutely a drug. Anyway we shouldnt be sad when someone dies the way they choose maybe i unno Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 1 hour ago, Poof said: Is that good or bad no sympathy but attention? And w/scoob its different he doesnt txt me back anymore which i get but its weird that he will talk on the boards still What? Did you think I hated you or something? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 10 minutes ago, scoobdog said: What? Did you think I hated you or something? all i said was u dont txt me back anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 43 minutes ago, Poof said: Well diabetes you can get from mainlining cheeseburgers so is it an addiction all the same? We're all dying from a vice or an addiction. And i mean if he was an alcoholic thats absolutely a drug. Anyway we shouldnt be sad when someone dies the way they choose maybe i unno Hereditary, he wasn't a big dude. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 11 minutes ago, André Toulon said: Hereditary, he wasn't a big dude. but the alcohol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 3 minutes ago, Poof said: but the alcohol Well yeah, that shit is loaded with sugar but my point was when you alluded to mainlining burgers, that wasn't the case. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted December 21, 2020 Author Share Posted December 21, 2020 1 minute ago, André Toulon said: Well yeah, that shit is loaded with sugar but my point was when you alluded to mainlining burgers, that wasn't the case. yup Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
scoobdog Posted December 21, 2020 Share Posted December 21, 2020 14 minutes ago, Poof said: all i said was u dont txt me back anymore You said me talking to you here is weird after me supposedly not responding to texts. Why is that weird? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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