You've inspired me to say something that happened in a dream that i kept bottled up since i was like 10.  The thing is i could have said it long ago but i forgot all about it until now.
 
	In my dream i was playing Contra, and i died..but the dude didn't just flip over and died like he normally did.  Instead he writhed in pain for several seconds, suffering and slowly fighting for each breath that i knew would eventually cease. Then the game over screen popped up and it said "do you want to go to hell" and i picked yes....then there was evil laughter as i realized my mistake and i screamed noooooo, but it was too late, i was awake.
 
	For literally years, that dream haunted my waling hours because all i could think was "im going to hell". I was so terrified that i couldn't even tell my mom....this is how fucking hard they hammer Christianity into you in some households.
 
	But i forgot all about this...Nihilism is such refreshing freedom.