Lynnrael

i probably seemed nervous bringing up the supply issues at today's meeting but i think i did a pretty good job of concealing how pissed off i was. ok maybe i was a little nervous, the hot people were there. that kinda helped with the rage i was feeling.

i wonder if, when body modification really gets going, we'll ever be able to alter our bodies so that we can live in the ocean. like, just give up life on land and learn to speak orca and join the revolution. that'd be cool

why do i feel like a zombie? oh right, the benadryl

I'm definitely gonna stick with this dunmer occultist run I'm doing. it's a lot of fun and the back story I've contrived allows me to do all the main things i want with this mod pack. i definitely want to make sure to see what is involved in the legacy of the dragon born content and worshipping hermaeus mora with the wintersun mod let's me have a good rp reason for it: gotta hoard that knowledge for him after all. can't wait to get home and play this.

for the line "i sold my soul, now i age but don't get old, and to this day it's the best deal i ever made" though the song is full of really great lines it was also my 2021 most played song of the year.

sugar, we're going down by fall out boy, because i still haven't really grown up

yeah i know they might just buy drugs, and i hope they enjoy it, too, cause being homeless sucks ass. i still get to do a thing and be happy about it, helping people is still worth doing even if you don't change their lives on the spot. solidarity has always been worth more than charity.

yes, people see mine as a moral falling too. and it hurts all the time. there is no way around that, but there are people out there that don't. finding them might seem daunting, but it's also not hopeless. but you really need to start by figuring out how to be kinder yourself, i think. just because people see you that way doesn't mean you have to see yourself that way. don't think about as trying to be happy, just think about it as being nicer to yourself, and it gets a little easier.

if I'm not careful they're gonna fire me, but god fucking damnit I'm tired of running out of the gloves that work and having to deal with stained and dried out hands all day. i constantly moisturize and they still crack. and i think it's more than fair to say running out the supplies we need is a failing on the part of someone higher up. how dare they even expect us to work without the proper equipment? i would tell someone to hold off on working if they don't have gloves when it was my job to keep people supplied. i would take fucking responsibility if they had run out when it was, you know, my fucking responsibility to make sure they don't. I'm gonna say the wrong damn thing, and they're gonna fire me, but this is unacceptable

do you see having a learning disability as a bad thing? do you want to be with women who think having a learning disability makes you a lesser person? of course that coin has two sides, and you have to be willing to see that most of what people see as moral failings or undesirable traits are just as irrelevant, and then start looking for people to share your life with based on standards that actually matter, like how they treat others and how compatible you are. if you don't want to change, I'm not gonna tell you have to. I'm not gonna get mad if you keep being lonely, but I'm also probably not gonna care. i just don't think the idea that a learning disability makes us undesirable should go unchallenged. i have a learning disability and i don't think that makes me undesirable at all, i think it means there people who would see that as a failing and i think those are people i want to stay the fuck away from anyways. idk, i think you have some internalized ableism to work on. you should consider working on, not to get laid, but to become a happier and healthier person. but that's up to you edit: I'm gonna add, i don't it's bad if you stay lonely, honestly, if you ultimately feel that it suits your needs best. but i don't think you really have to

what bit was it? i love George Carlin

this woman is so goddamn hot to me in the gayest way, I'm glad she's in a different department cause I'd never be able to focus if she worked with me all day. there's also that guy on the other shift who is also incredibly hot. i can't wait until I'm hot too, ugh.

i really want to do karaoke some time, it's been a while since I've tried and i think I'll enjoy it a lot more these days

oh shit there's a new season? that one episode probably helped me realize that I'm trans now that I think about lol

i really wish i could just come to work and do my job without worrying about coworkers being up my ass about every little thing. it's so fucking annoying. i don't want to care about this or any job any more than i have to, i do not have the energy to care more than i have to, because my spare energy needs to spent on things that actually matter to me. i wish this guy would just realize I'm not in the mood for his shit and leave me the fuck alone i really need to cut back on weed but if this guy keeps bothering me I'm not gonna be able to be nice and sober, ones gonna have to go. ugh

the sound on this makes it so hopefully it uploads right lol xznmpNh.mp4

honestly my current dating plan is to just wait until I'm hot and hope my friend falls for me, which is a terrible plan and probably won't work yeah upon reflecting i see how it's also kinda not fair to him. i may need to actually do more work on myself as a person and figure out how to date and stuff

yeah where i used to live in CA would get multiple weeks of this kind of heat every year. less than 95 was a nice cool day. I'm so glad I'm not there anymore lol

i honestly don't even know where to begin but I was in one relationship for 9 years and both myself and dating have changed a lot in that time I'm hoping being pan helps but I'm pretty sure it'll just mean i can be attracted to more people who aren't attracted to me