Bro, mthor is right. If you want to be put on a list for a liver, you have to demonstrate you're minimizing your risk of not just needing another liver (which you aren't going to get anyway) but also that your years of survival after the transplant are likely to justify the next person up or down the transplant list. Rather than acknowledging you're an alcoholic, going to AA is more about acknowledging that you're making a lifestyle change and addressing any kind of potentially damaging coping behavior (like over eating, medication abuse, or even something tangential like gambling or shopping). Just being scared isn't going to cut it.