Thought so. That explains a lot. It doesn't excuse anything, not for fuggs or Phillies or me - or you. But it does explain a lot.
I understand that you don't take the meds - we've all got med horror stories. I hate them - I miss the rush of energy and creativity that comes with hypomania. But man, you've got to do something. You're young, you're reasonably intelligent, you've got skills, and you're reasonably personable. But you are so fucking erratic; yes, it's due to cycling, but most people can't tolerate it. You're going to lose jobs, friends, lovers, and self-respect - if you haven't already.
Please, for your own sake, do what you have to do to take care of yourself, even if you hate it. And dammit, listen when I lecture - I'm old enough to date your father.