Poof

oh my bad i thought ur post was from neverkeepchangin. sorry. is that why theyre named sheldon and leonard?

yea that does happen. im not sure why

i'd need some acid

one episode? $100. these days i only do cam $100/30mins and u have to get 30 mins or gtfo. corporate policy

i kind of hate u for making me say it

never

no but i've poured milk on myself while chanting that I worship the shiva lingam

i think the one where leonard and sheldon meet for the first time

and then i behaved the way i believed a fan of the big bang theory would behave and becoming a 4th level representation myself and becoming part of the problem

you can't make me like it

you should it's a true story. i actually did that

i googled "best big bang episode" and said that

you laugh with my pain?

am i bitter for hating them?

...not anymore

and yet you laugh at my pain

i liked the end but then he woke up

bazinga

fuck

this is serious

I'm sorry

It's no secret. And typically it never really bothers me. Except there's one viewer who made me feel so vile. Ever since that camshow, I haven't felt the same. I don't feel like me anymore, I feel worthless, dirty, low. I don't even feel like a person. I fulfill fantasies on camera. It's what I do. But when I made the mistake of asking what his favorite tv show was. And he said, "Big Bang Theory" And he asked me, "Do you like it?" I repeated to myself in my head, "It's just pretend, it's just pretend, it's just pretend. This isn't you, this isn't really you." And I replied, "Yea it's great." I thought that was enough. I thought the worst was over, but then he said, "What's your favorite episode?" And I feel like a part of me died right then. Part of me I can never get back. I can't talk about this anymore....