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'hey arnold' was actually kind of brilliant. i also enjoyed a short lived series 'as told by ginger' that was very clever. now....'ahhhh monsters!' that was so wonderfully weird. but if you don't absolutely swoon for 'angry beavers', well.....piss off.

and yet no one said it. koinophilia you do have an aesthetically pleasing face.

^great questions. i can field those...

i had someone tell me i smelled so good. my smell was 'skin deep'. now, THAT, i didn't know how to take.

evil/interpol

don't. you. fucking. dare.

angelica ross. and i had NO idea she's trans. apparently roberts made some transphobic comments at ross.

we used to go to 'alpine slide' at magic mountain/vt. talk about a death wish. i've gotten burned SO many times, rubbing on the tubes. but we got so 'good' that we'd bring gloves, prop our foot on the 'stick' and just basically luge down cement tubes.

i am so sorry, i am laughing...literally out loud right now. i am picturing your pixie arse, going mach 5 down a water tube, and lifeguards, kind of looking around like...'what was that?

we had a little kickball thing for the kids this summer. the adults got to play, since there weren't enough kids. i didn't want to play. BUT, i decided to, so the boy wouldn't feel...iono... of course he didn't, but i'm a mom we think...weird things sometimes. ANYWAY....i wind up... i take the kick, i can easily get to 2nd.... except, somehow, i turned my left leg, before the right, or visa-versa, at the same time thinking 'i should have REALLY stretched' then BAM, i went down, like a tree. i pulled my hamstring. a couple days later, i still was having trouble walking, but i never looked, because it was an inside pain. mid yells 'JFC wtf is wrong with back of your leg?" my entire upper left leg was one giant bruise. from the butt cheek down to the knee and covering the entire back of the leg. and for weeks, i could see the bruising breaking up, and traveling down toward the foot.

very similar. just don't forget the baking soda in the boil. and you can see where i didn't pinch the dough quite enough, and the sizes are a bit off. but, not a bad first try. and i'm going to make pretzels next week.

1 hot dog. 4 homemade dill pickle chips. serving size reg. chips. 4 oz cherry kool aid because apparently i'm a 9 year child.

bacon cheese bagel, with extra bacon?

awww.. you guys. so sweet. thank you. and yes..that is an everything bagel. i was going to do truffle paremesian black garlic, but these folks aren't ready for that.

just like a bagel. i know if i had the mead syrup, they would taste JUST like the one in douglaston NY. i mean, i really surprised myself. i used brown sugar, in the dough, and honey for the boil.

these are really terrible pics. i promise, they aren't burnt XD

i made bagels. first attempt not bad at all. the plain should have been baked seperately, however, they taste amazing. they'd be even better if i could find malt syrup. anyway, they may sell, they may not, but for a first attempt at something i thought was a secret of only the jewish deli down the road in douglaston...i'm pretty happy with the results.

you don't need to drop it. you need to face it, with your therapist. and what you're describing my man, is life. i'm going to suggest you watch 'joe vs the volcano'. just do it. don't question it. just watch.

ok. well...he's describing what about 80% of us went through as children. my parental unit was verbally and physically abusive. for years, UNTIL I LEFT HOME AT 14. (no sad shit-it's just fucking life) at 15 i had to figure out shit REAL quick. he's been on this kick for almost a decade now. with the same knuckleheads, (me included) giving him the same tired ass suggestions, that he ignores. i would say about 90% of the people HERE feel, in one way or another, inadequate. (me included) yes, we come here to seek acceptance, but ghost...is just dropping the needle on the same, dusty album.

what? how are you being held to a higher standard? by whom? becasue if you're not being promoted in these dead end jobs...than who exactly is holding you to a higher standard? people aren't harder on you than most. it's all in your head. you are taking your life way too seriously. and you should stop it. if you don't like your job, find a new one. if you don't like how people treat you , speak up. YOU should be holding yourself to a higher standard, and stop allowing your notion of HOW you think people percieve you. and i really REALLY think this is better served to your therapist. we are not the right people to help. not at all. but you knew that.

proofing the dough today. i'll let you know if i succeed or fail.