Sounds like you subconsciously (or even consciously) want things to change, but something is holding you back. Not sure whether it's something you're doing, or some outside factor, because I don't know your life. But that's generally what that means, I think.
The lion at the end could mean that deep down, you know you have the power to make those changes. Like your mind is reassuring you that even though you might be weary of change, you can do it.