I have 2 thoughts here:
1. If they can’t take imperfections, quirks, or a slower pace, then they shouldn’t be with you.
2. I think you are too hard on yourself. You should take a couple of breaths before going forward. Ask a couple questions. Move forward after answers that make sense come to you.
Yeah. I don’t remember my original name anymore. My alt became my main, and then, my handle everywhere. I’m boring when it comes to naming things, but fun with everything else. *shrug*