My bipolar and aad is at war with themseves. Any form of relationships in my life are foreordained to fail because i have the inability to genuinely care to the extent that is necessary to sustain anything.
I find it incredibly easy to leave people and nor do i care when they leave.
I’m emotionally crippled and my emotional and mental growth has been stunted from child abuse and abandonment. Some days are more of a struggle than others, especially since i am not medicated due to the lack of insurance, but i’ll push through whatever i need to to exist.
I disappear when i feel like i’m getting swallowed up.