jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 Everyone in class had good answers, working to help their family, working hard to get a good job, or some other reasonable answer. And I remember thinking, "Nothing motivates me". And then I remembered that my hatred for my family motivated me to work hard and hatred for myself for being weak in the past, but I couldn't necessarily say that out loud, >__> so at the time, I sad "Working hard to prove others wrong". But I've been like really hating camo guy lately, like I can't even stand how much of a jerk he is. Like after I confronted last week, I went home and solved 3 problems from the project that weekend while he did none. Flash forward to yesterday, and I was in extreme pain and couldn't finish the last problem due for the extra credit deadline. He got upset, which just made me hate him even more, long story short, I had an engineer friend in my student housing that helped me finish it. But today, I knocked half of our lab assignment in 2 hours just because I'm so fucking mad at him. 🤣 I just don't want to pass this class, I want to fucking humiliate him. I thought I was bad at understanding CS, but now that I'm back on my energetic anti depressants, I feel WAAAAAY more focus than I have my whole time here at this school. I want to do better on the midterm just to rub it in his face, I want to rise above this guy, and honestly, nothing motivates me more than hatred for those who undervalue me. Maybe that's why I love Regina from Once upon a time so much! 🤣 1
Cau Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 I thought what motivated you was trying to earn my affection.
jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Author Posted February 28, 2020 35 minutes ago, Cau said: I thought what motivated you was trying to earn my affection. No affection, only GPA 1
InsaneFox Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 36 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: No affection, only GPA Why would you want Cau's GPA? Get your own. 5
Raptorpat Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 so you're working hard to prove camo guy wrong and take cau's gpa? that is ambitious. 3
jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Author Posted February 28, 2020 15 minutes ago, InsaneFox said: Why would you want Cau's GPA? Get your own. Cause Cau is a genius
jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Author Posted February 28, 2020 8 minutes ago, Admin_Raptorpat said: so you're working hard to prove camo guy wrong and take cau's gpa? that is ambitious. Oh my god, you guys are making laugh so hard. 🤣 What can I say I'm an ambitious person.
Raptorpat Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 cau's gpa is *no* laughing matter, yackie
jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Author Posted February 28, 2020 32 minutes ago, Admin_Raptorpat said: cau's gpa is *no* laughing matter, yackie What kind of matter is it? Liquid, Gas, solid, or plasma? 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 28, 2020 Author Posted February 28, 2020 4 minutes ago, Cau said: I have a 4.0 in finger painting. That's still a 4.0 and it's better than me right now.
avec Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 3 hours ago, Admin_Raptorpat said: gasquid 1 1
Distortedreasoning Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 just dont be consumed by the hate and i think you can be fine. 1
tsar4 Posted February 28, 2020 Posted February 28, 2020 Fear of ending up "IN A VAN DOWN BY THE RIVER"!
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