J.M. Matthews Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 8 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Yes everyday, I don't even play video games, rarely check my messages sometimes I skip school cause it feels like too much. I'm not as talkative as I usually am with my boyfriend. Let me guess, you feel like there are this huge weight and gravity pressing down on you, and it's hard to stand up for long periods...?
Phillies Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 I think every depressed person should try a bipolar med like lamictal at least one time just to make sure you aren't secretly type 2 bipolar.
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 12 minutes ago, Still Me said: SAVAGE Usually those are my moments, through spoken word, but not always, sometimes I stutter. I did actually chase a guy with his own baseball bat in highschool. I think it changed him cause he was super nice to me on the later years, even cheered for me in graduation. Turns out a lot of jocks did, I think it was obvious I was depressed. Ironically is was the fellow nerds who were the worst to me. Other than that I have brawled with my sisters a couple of times, I told them I have a high physical pain tolerance from all the times I've been beaten, and they would give. Up, although my little sister did come at me with a knife cause she was mad I made her give up in the fight, so I just left the house. 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 11 minutes ago, J.M. Matthews said: Bingo! Oh, then that's what you need to see somebody about...I suggest a doctor, maybe a therapist. I have fatigue too. You have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I also have Asperger's, depression, social phobia, anxiety, phonophobia, and OCD. No schizophrenia though. My biological father's mother, so grandma on the other side, was Schizophrenic, my father and his brother had to be adopted by another family, and I think she lives in asylum. But my father also abandoned my family when I was 4. He goes around and makes kids with other people, surprisingly alot. It doesn't bother me though, I knew he was a jerk around 4 anyways. 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 10 minutes ago, J.M. Matthews said: Let me guess, you feel like there are this huge weight and gravity pressing down on you, and it's hard to stand up for long periods...? I actually don't mind standing, so long as I'm going somewhere, I took a lot of walks in high school to get away all time. These days, I just don't feel like leaving the bed, you know. I just don't want to deal with the bullshit the world has to offer. 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 5 minutes ago, Phillies said: I think every depressed person should try a bipolar med like lamictal at least one time just to make sure you aren't secretly type 2 bipolar. I do feel manic sometimes, and scared mostly, so I might have anxiety, but it's worth being evaluated for multiple things. 1
Ginguy Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 37 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Whaat that's an interesting post. In my job I sometimes see internal polling figures. I can't say what they are though. I will say that I think it would be good if more people would go to the polls. 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, Ginguy said: In my job I sometimes see internal polling figures. I can't say what they are though. I will say that I think it would be good if more people would go to the polls. I agree too, even though through I have depression everyday, I think it's important not to be cynical about the world. Cynicism tends to tell us why bother, we should give up, and all that does is give power to wrong people. 1
Phillies Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 17 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: I do feel manic sometimes, and scared mostly, so I might have anxiety, but it's worth being evaluated for multiple things. Then you have a mild form of bipolar period. You shouldn't be on any antidepressants.
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 4 minutes ago, Phillies said: Then you have a mild form of bipolar period. You shouldn't be on any antidepressants. I should pass this along to the next doctor, that I might have different forms of depression. 1
Phillies Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 yeah tell them you think you've been manic before. explain that aspect of it, the right bipolar med can really help.
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 8 minutes ago, Phillies said: yeah tell them you think you've been manic before. explain that aspect of it, the right bipolar med can really help. Here's to hoping for a better future. 1
Poof Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 1 hour ago, jackiemarie90 said: lol my boyfriend is shorter than me. He's 5'7 and I'm the Amazon. I’m 6’0 I’ve been taller than quite a few guys 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 4 minutes ago, Poof said: I’m 6’0 I’ve been taller than quite a few guys Twinsies! Although you are like slighter taller twin, but still lit. <3 1
Phillies Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 12 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Here's to hoping for a better future. cheers to that 1
scoobdog Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 (edited) 2 hours ago, fuggnificent said: devils advocate - maybe the depression is more serious at the moment? remember when i said i couldnt focus when i was really depressed? maybe once your depression symptoms are alleviated, you will be able to focus and concentrate better. Even in your case, depression is a symptom, so it makes no sense to "focus" on it. You would treat psychological components and then treat the physiological causes because you don't want to unnecessarily medicate. Clearly, this psychiatrist was not treating her properly. Edited February 24, 2018 by scoobdog
Poof Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 43 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Twinsies! Although you are like slighter taller twin, but still lit. <3 We would get so much attention
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, Poof said: We would get so much attention Yaasss people would think we were models with our height and swag.
Drunkenwarrior Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 I'm a little threatened by you, but it kinda turns me on so i'm cool with it 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 6 minutes ago, Drunkenwarrior said: I'm a little threatened by you, but it kinda turns me on so i'm cool with it The men into tall women always interest me. 1
Drunkenwarrior Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, jackiemarie90 said: The men into tall women always interest me. We have some things to talk about then.....
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 2 minutes ago, Drunkenwarrior said: We have some things to talk about then..... Welp there are variety of tall women out there. Amazons, Vikings, models, Warriors, the galore. 1
Drunkenwarrior Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 1 minute ago, jackiemarie90 said: Welp there are variety of tall women out there. Amazons, Vikings, models, Warriors, the galore. How tall are you?
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, Drunkenwarrior said: How tall are you? I'm 5'10 although I am already taken by Eldemonio. 1
Still Me Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 2 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: Usually those are my moments, through spoken word, but not always, sometimes I stutter. I did actually chase a guy with his own baseball bat in highschool. I think it changed him cause he was super nice to me on the later years, even cheered for me in graduation. Turns out a lot of jocks did, I think it was obvious I was depressed. Ironically is was the fellow nerds who were the worst to me. Other than that I have brawled with my sisters a couple of times, I told them I have a high physical pain tolerance from all the times I've been beaten, and they would give. Up, although my little sister did come at me with a knife cause she was mad I made her give up in the fight, so I just left the house. Brutal 1
Drunkenwarrior Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, jackiemarie90 said: I'm 5'10 although I am already taken by Eldemonio. Slow down girl,,,,we're just talking logistics
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 4 minutes ago, Drunkenwarrior said: Slow down girl,,,,we're just talking logistics Ok, just didn't want it to get to far.
Drunkenwarrior Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 11 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: Ok, just didn't want it to get to far. I"m a classy man 1
Juice McKenzie Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 5 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: Wellbutrin is WAAAAAAY better than zoloft to me. Zoloft blurred my vision, took my energy, it literally made feel like I was in the sunken place. lol and the women is my psychiatrist! maybe my anti-depressant is whats causing me to always feel tired im not even sure i really need to take it anymore
Juice McKenzie Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 also thats what i hate about doctors all they want to do is give you pills instead of trying to figure out an actual solution 2
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, Saiyanman said: maybe my anti-depressant is whats causing me to always feel tired im not even sure i really need to take it anymore You can always look up the different types of anti depressants out there. Some are literal downers, and some do give energy, welbutrin is one of them. 1
Juice McKenzie Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 5 minutes ago, jackiemarie90 said: You can always look up the different types of anti depressants out there. Some are literal downers, and some do give energy, welbutrin is one of them. i don't want to take pills
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 Just now, Saiyanman said: i don't want to take pills That's healthier for your liver. You can always go for walks and excercise, I hear those are good for depression too. But ultimately up to you, I don't get out much myself these days. 1
TrigunBebop Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 So wait... you told your psychiatrist that your meds were making you feel worse, and showed her that you were harming yourself, and she reacted by claiming she felt threatened by you and threatened to call security? That is the exact opposite of an appropriate reaction to have towards a heavily depressed person who has been harming themselves. Your psychiatrist fucked up big time. 1
jackiemarie90 Posted February 24, 2018 Author Posted February 24, 2018 8 minutes ago, TrigunBebop said: So wait... you told your psychiatrist that your meds were making you feel worse, and showed her that you were harming yourself, and she reacted by claiming she felt threatened by you and threatened to call security? That is the exact opposite of an appropriate reaction to have towards a heavily depressed person who has been harming themselves. Your psychiatrist fucked up big time. From confrontation views, I see this as, people don't like to be attack that they are doing something wrong, and will make a ton of excuses to defend themselves, instead of attempting to empathetic. Idk, most of the time I would just want a sincere apology from people. But then that incriminates them and they don't want that. I'm not really a vengeful person either, not in action, I wouldn't mind be friends with someone, if they just apologize. But when they put up their defenses, I just leave and move on. Gonna go to SF tomorrow to get more cannabis tho so there's that. 1
Juice McKenzie Posted February 24, 2018 Posted February 24, 2018 11 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said: That's healthier for your liver. You can always go for walks and excercise, I hear those are good for depression too. But ultimately up to you, I don't get out much myself these days. i her that too but I'm a lazy fuck
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