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without you ever realizing they are. Then whilst sitting back and taking stock of things you realize you arent quite comfortable with  who you are becoming but even more so you are disgusted with how this diminished, warped, and less moral self seems to jive better with everyone. So is it easier? Is it easier to just let go of the wheel and not give a shit. To lament in old age, enraged at missed chances and unspoken words? Or is it better to always be the object of ridicule? To stand hard against the whims of society, satisfied but outcast? And what to do if you cant  muster enough of a fuck to care about the outcome of either?

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4 hours ago, Vixen_catgirl said:

without you ever realizing they are. Then whilst sitting back and taking stock of things you realize you arent quite comfortable with  who you are becoming but even more so you are disgusted with how this diminished, warped, and less moral self seems to jive better with everyone. So is it easier? Is it easier to just let go of the wheel and not give a shit. To lament in old age, enraged at missed chances and unspoken words? Or is it better to always be the object of ridicule? To stand hard against the whims of society, satisfied but outcast? And what to do if you cant  muster enough of a fuck to care about the outcome of either?

  Without details, I can't really offer any helpful advice. Generally, if you are not happy with what you are becoming, it is your conscience, it will not go away, it cannot be bought off either.

If it is Dame Fortune darkening the skies with slings and arrows, stand true to your principles and flip the bitch the bird with the biggest grin you can muster....

 

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5 hours ago, Vixen_catgirl said:

without you ever realizing they are. Then whilst sitting back and taking stock of things you realize you arent quite comfortable with  who you are becoming but even more so you are disgusted with how this diminished, warped, and less moral self seems to jive better with everyone. So is it easier? Is it easier to just let go of the wheel and not give a shit. To lament in old age, enraged at missed chances and unspoken words? Or is it better to always be the object of ridicule? To stand hard against the whims of society, satisfied but outcast? And what to do if you cant  muster enough of a fuck to care about the outcome of either?

Outside forces constantly change the individual...that’s why we not only physically, but are mentally different...it’s all depends on how you let it affect you. The best option is to look at yourself objectively and decide what attributes you like having vs the bad. You can like how you are and work on things you recognize are your faults. And when there are people who don’t like you at the worst of times then they aren’t worth your time when you’re at your best. It’s times like these where you find people who are truly there for you and are loyal. Personally when dealing with ridicule, it’s all in perception. Yes you may be mocked for some attribute, but only you can choose to feel it. If you don’t care what people think of you who aren’t in your inner circle then fuck em...let them say what they will. Know who you are, love what you are. And no one should ever have the power over you to take that away.

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5 hours ago, Vixen_catgirl said:

without you ever realizing they are. Then whilst sitting back and taking stock of things you realize you arent quite comfortable with  who you are becoming but even more so you are disgusted with how this diminished, warped, and less moral self seems to jive better with everyone. So is it easier? Is it easier to just let go of the wheel and not give a shit. To lament in old age, enraged at missed chances and unspoken words? Or is it better to always be the object of ridicule? To stand hard against the whims of society, satisfied but outcast? And what to do if you cant  muster enough of a fuck to care about the outcome of either?

I can't figure out what you're talking about. I don't feel that way, like, ever. Do you??

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