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Ditto

I feel ok most days its not worth the risk

No purple or grey days for no reason.

I will when medicinal is legal. Should happen soon.

I see people post theyre completely depression free. I want that.

And i got approved for a whole new credit card. (No fees, cash back) i knew i shouldn't have applied for but i need an emergency fund The...itch...to...spend....increases lol Almost on the SAME day i manage to decrease my car insurance, cell phone and satellite bills saving over $150 a month Dammit

I have real problems and i dont drink or drug them away like the weak ass bitch you are. Youre way closer to your demise than ill ever be. Become obsessed with that, loser.

Typical month for me Green days are good I feel as if im still extremely easily triggered. Like if something goes wrong or happens outside my routine. But them theres days i just feel crappy or am manic and cant sleep Every time i pick up my meds the pharmacist has to come over and tell me the dosage and mix is a risk. So i def don't want the meds increased. Im getting FMLA next month to be able to go to my therapist more often and take more breaks. You saw the long list of meds ive tried. I was heading to electric shock therapy for real. Are u interested in the ketamine treatments that were just approved? Im definitely gonna try cbd oil once SC makes up their mind.

Im realizing that when my anxiety or depression somehow pushes its way thru all my meds...the feeling are extremely painful. Like having a knife in your chest...but the knife is lodged in there and youve just gotten used to it. Imagine feeling as if you lost your best friend and your favorite grandma died FOR NO REASON. Nothing is wrong..u just feel like crap. Imagine trying to function feeling like that all day....how hard it is concentrate..think clearly...do simple tasks. I didnt realize how much i suffered before my meds. That feeling intense irritability and rage 24/7 wasnt normal. That i was seeking relief constantly from all that pain. Having it all and barely enjoying it because i was too sick. What am i missing out on now? And after almost 30 years of being emotionally crippled, i dont know how to be "normal" or stop living my life as if im still all fucked up lol There should be some kind of life instructions for people after they find meds that work. I find myself just caught in old crazy habits i cant break....small example...i cant turn on my tv in the middle of the night and i cant sleep. I literally cannot. I just feel really uncomfortable doing it. .like i need to be fully aware of my surroundings at nite.

Incest (pretend), lolita, hentai, rape, reverse bukkake, squirt, interracial, massage, sleep, hookers, gay thug, trans, gay (twink), bdsm (only with fucking...none of that teasing stuff), dogging, teenagers banging strangers off the street, theatre, bi cuckhold.. All i can think of now. I used to fap A LOT. Im talking for hours a day. Alone in my apartment lol

Her: they lived in such a luxury house Me: it's "luxurious" Her: you arent my ELA teacher! Me: yes, i am! Im your ORIGINAL ELA teacher!

Madison and I are up early to watch a movie together to break the monotony of our routine Been up since 430 am

LOL! I think you get the vibe i be getting lol

For moments like that i keep sunflower seeds or greek zero yogurt handy

Why God

Dunkin donuts is way better than starbucks

Wow that does sound scary! I know youll be fine! Let us know how it goes. Maybe in this thread? Ive been wanting to save up money and just fly somewhere different but the mere thought scares the bejesus out of me.

It usually goes like this after they hand me my check Me: thanks. Also, can i speak to your manager? Them:(worried look) was something wrong? Me: Nope 😜

I tell people they are doing a good job all the time. But when they are serving me, i definitely let them know i want to tell the manager abt how great they are doing. Altho its fun when they think they are in trouble lol

... I wish i could tell when youre being serious or not

I wanna start a thing where people post about conquering their fears, attempting things theyd never dared before, going out of your comfort zone. And post successes and failures. This is kind of something i have to do everyday because i battle high anxiety. Like just now a little girl in a group of teenagers kicked a cake while standing in line and then put it back on the rack. I made her hand it to the cashier so they wouldn't sell it lol im so meek/shy usually id be too afraid to talk to someone's kid like that. So it can be little things or big things.

Oh come on! LOL

@Kudasai update?

Well check it out and ban the mofo

Can u see the ip address of the attempts