ive been in alot of fights. a mix of going against guys/girls and a mix of winning/losing. in two of the ones that i won against guys, they cried after. at the end of one of those, the guy was on the ground already crying alil and as he got on his hands and knees to stand up, i kicked him hard in the stomach and he curled up and really started bawling. regardless of what happened earlier, i hate that i did that. the memory is so viscerally haunting and stuck in my head. unless youre a total psychopath, hurting someone hurts you too. so i can only imagine what killing someone does to you