ohhh... 8 years and it must be rough....
my experience tells me when you dont know when to put down the drugs, or cant, its time to evaluate how and when to get clean.
you are past that into the world of keeping safely away from the substance, and i can tell you that you must remind yourself how difficult
it is to stop the habit and affliction in its grip. if you need a sober buddy, i might not be 100% sober, but i can listen and at least help with
my experiences and not to preach but listen, so PM or @ me if you need to.