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I mean I guess I can't really complain that much since it was a combination of not knowing what I really want to do with my life, and not giving enough fucks that probably has me sitting here thinking about it so much. xD but damn... I really need to do something atm besides work dead end or boring mundane jobs and then just come home and sit on my computer or mess with video games. I gotta figure out how to do IRL shit again, and I havent honestly had to say that much..:|

Also I will solve this dilemma.. I feel like the answer is close/

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That_One_Guy Paragon

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6 minutes ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

I mean I guess I can't really complain that much since it was a combination of not knowing what I really want to do with my life, and not giving enough fucks that probably has me sitting here thinking about it so much. xD but damn... I really need to do something atm besides work dead end or boring mundane jobs and then just come home and sit on my computer or mess with video games. I gotta figure out how to do IRL shit again, and I havent honestly had to say that much..:|

Also I will solve this dilemma.. I feel like the answer is close/

Things will get better, man. Just take it one day at a time.

Killa Ounze Aristocrat

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I like to think things are just phases. I've had it rough the last year or two but i can only last so long. I know what I want to do at least, but haven't been able to do much with stress and lack of cash...

but at least when things get better I'll be focused... but yeah I don't do much besides write occasionally, and game at the moment. But the first step to fixing a problem is realizing it's there.

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PhilosipherStoned Monster Mutant

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I saw this coming long ago. and let it happen anyway. I feel totally disconnected with my current social environment as well since literally everyone I know here has settled down and had kids with freaking high school sweethearts none the less..

Either that or they went the drug/dreg route, and I feel like I have to freaking watch my back around people that used to be close friends.. I think I just need to plan a move to an actual city again for one. Or just any place I havent lived in yet usually infuses me with a little inspiration to be more social try new things etc.. I'll have to rent out this entire house though..or have a job good enough to pay the mortgage here, and rent or something some where else.. 

Poof Monster Mutant

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1 hour ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

or find someone to sign off this mortgage over..or find a job that provides lodging. Border Patrol... meh I'm

just so tired of doing government related shit at this point I've been scared to give that a try..

I was following you up until this post. Do u work for border patrol?

PhilosipherStoned Monster Mutant

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no I might be able to get on with them fairly easy having been a uav operator was my point. 

but to me right now it's just another 100 page packet.. some ' high speed training' and probably

a lot of other b.s. that I don't want to deal with. 

Neko Elder

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2 hours ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

I mean I guess I can't really complain that much since it was a combination of not knowing what I really want to do with my life, and not giving enough fucks that probably has me sitting here thinking about it so much. xD but damn... I really need to do something atm besides work dead end or boring mundane jobs and then just come home and sit on my computer or mess with video games. I gotta figure out how to do IRL shit again, and I havent honestly had to say that much..:|

Also I will solve this dilemma.. I feel like the answer is close/

I'm 32 and still haven't figured that shit out.

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Mix Monster Mutant

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what if you're in hell?

what if that's what hell is.....you continue to live your miserable life, never able to improve your circumstances.....

it's especially cruel because you never know, so you spend eternity miserable, assuming you can change things with time and effort....

 

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Poof Monster Mutant

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2 minutes ago, Clem Fandango said:

what if you're in hell?

what if that's what hell is.....you continue to live your miserable life, never able to improve your circumstances.....

it's especially cruel because you never know, so you spend eternity miserable, assuming you can change things with time and effort....

 

That’d be such a weak hell

Mix Monster Mutant

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2 minutes ago, Poof said:

That’d be such a weak hell

you think?

if there was a hell, I would think fire and demons inelegant....people's minds contain their own custom made hell....if you want someone tortured for eternity, an omniscient being need only let us act as our own torturers....for some of us, maybe running our lives on a loop would suffice...

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Poof Monster Mutant

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hell is such a stupid concept anyway. Oh big deal I have no mouth and I must scream. Well if u didn’t have to be such a little bitch u wouldn’t have to scream in the first place & u could just chill while the thing tries to phase u

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Mix Monster Mutant

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4 minutes ago, Poof said:

hell is such a stupid concept anyway. Oh big deal I have no mouth and I must scream. Well if u didn’t have to be such a little bitch u wouldn’t have to scream in the first place & u could just chill while the thing tries to phase u

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Gyaos Centurion

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People say hell is meaningless, but meaning is also a meaningless concept.

Back in the day, early humans didn't have time to worry about this shit. They worried about how they were going to survive. They needed food, water, perhaps shelter. Also, there's hormones and the inherent desire to fuck something. They didn't have the time to worry about things like meaning. I'm sure they thought about it and asked why they were there, but they didn't do it to the extent that we do now. People claim that if you aren't "doing something meaningful," then you're wasting your life. I disagree, only because this seems like an extremely human concept in a universe that's bigger than our minds can possibly comprehend. We're the only animals that fucking care about this. Shit got old, so I let it go.

As for careers and stuff, that's why I'm a paramedic. I left a desk job full of stress for one that is even more stressful and requires me to move around a lot because that's what the job demands. I've been considering a change as well lately, and I've been doing this for three years now. There is nothing wrong with that, and I hate seeing people beat up on themselves--or on each other--because they don't have everything "planned out." ESPECIALLY those types, because they should fucking know better.

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