Poof

yes i do

i thought u were into that

this isnt medieval times

shut up

no youre not

feed me

you're such a sweety

it

shall we

i think about eating ppl when im not trapped

thats why u cant even get me sour patchies shes got your balls in her purse and your statements in her inbox oh and I'm making cookies w/my parents

yes thank you

I was wondering if maybe some were covid / if you knew the cause. Just seems like a lot of ODs depending on how many people you know. Like I lost contact with pretty much everyone by now. Like I said this girl died 2 years ago and I didn't even know. Still tho it feels like as I got older there were less and less ODs. I unno

thanks ghosty

It is a bad year but 6 seems like a lot. Thats strange to me. My experience it feels like more of us died young, and theres less deaths as I get older. Speaking about pre-porn party friends of course.. W/porn girls it's just like a steady loss. Which is really unnerving how constant and consistent the deaths are. And the fact that so many are murders. And less fans/clients do it than you'd think. Like fans and clients def do kill porn girls but idk something about being in porn either makes you attract ppl in your life who will kill you or makes ppl just wanna kill u. It's like 1/3 ODs 1/3 suicides 1/3 murders. Like before I started I knew porn girls died a lot. But I imagined it to be like 90% ODs/suicides and at most maybe 10% murders. It's just way more than I imagined. It's like wake up and hear so-and-so died and ask "How?" "Well this guy dismembered her and burned her body in the forest." "... .... well... FUCK... was it a fan?" "nah. Roommate" "ah, ok.. thought it might be a crazed fan" "Nope" "well if youll excuse me I'm gonna go stare off into space for a lil while"

yea me too. I've lost so many people and she def is the type. Like the type where it's not tragic bc of how she was. Esp w/her sense of humor about things like this. She intimidated me w/her use and the way she associated w/ppl. Like she made me feel like I didn't know what I was doing and that I was going to die or get arrested. So I guess it just feels weird that shes dead and I'm not. I really liked this bitch. It's a very numb sorrow. Like I know I'm not going to cry but I'll be thinking about her all the time for the foreseeable future.

I used to party w/her all the time and we'd buy and sell drugs to each other She died 2 years ago. I only even know bc I'm looking thru facebook and her page is memorialized which explains why jake has been sober for 2 years. I didn't think he would ever stop I didn't realize how much time passed since I last looked up everyone

oh yea you would be dealing w/military standards. I forgot about that. I'm just going by the chart my doctors give me when they yell at me for being 140 lbs when I was 160 at my check up 6 months ago

at 6'0" I can only go down to like 144 without being considered underweight. You must be a fair bit shorter than me

I've always yoyo'd my weight. I fluctuate between 140-160 all the time... except now I'm 170 which is whats so fucking crazy I never get this heavy....

already done

i wish I could be both somehow

I kind of like it too... Like when guys get me a pizza and I eat way too much and get a stomach ache... yea i don't wanna become like super heavy either tho

Really?

Like a kink for the process of gaining weight? Like are u a feeder?