jackiemarie90

I've been on them for a month, just feel like killing myself sooner tbh, did some cuts today. But now I'm drinking so I'm more calm. Also it was a school councilor who suggest it. Also most studies focus on boys symptoms. http://www.apa.org/topics/adhd/gender.aspx

I believe it now, I was forced to see one in high school, just kinda ignored me, none really have an ounce of care, it's just easy to see you are this or that, and take this.

Yeah, they were the ones to suggest I have ADHD but they can't prescribe anything, that honor goes to the freaking psychiatrist.

Idk, I think there is high chance I qualify for a learning disability. Both my sisters have it, I know my older sister was dyslexic. I'm thinking I might have ADHD, as I tend to type fast and leave a ton of grammar mistakes behind. I reread the same sentence over 20 times because I can't focus, and I'm always daydreaming, during class, or even with my boyfriend, it's hard to focus on the now. Plus I think my psychiatrist was happy to get rid of me. She was like, please leave and all that shit.

I am, and my psychiatrist knew this as well, and threw it back at me. Too be honest I think there is more with me, I had alot of these issues in grade school, I told my mom, she said stop acting like a retard. So I guess it's hard to get people to believe me.

I've not even THAT tall but 5'10 is tall around here I guess.

I'm gonna try and do that too, optionally, for when I travel to Italy for 10 days, there is alot of videos about on youtube.

One of my best friends I used to talk all time on here died 2 years ago. By friends irl for a couples of years abandon me because of a rumor, then when I caught them talking shit in public I simply acknowledge that I saw it with a "like". Of course it was all my fault so they block me and talk shit all they time. I stopped talking to my family about 2 years ago too, they kept blaming me for things so I'm simply just trying to avoid them. I do have so great friends here to talk to, but they stay up later than me these days.

Yeah I was just looking for funny pop culture moments, they tend to cheer me up a bit, and memes.

To be a history major, but I feel so awful right now, it's hard to think about anything with this all going in my mind.

I'm also considering dark web options at this point, I feel like I can't even try anymore right now. Finding a new doctor will take months.

True but that takes a lot of time on MediCal insurance. Had to wait 2 months just see this one.

Wellbutrin is WAAAAAAY better than zoloft to me. Zoloft blurred my vision, took my energy, it literally made feel like I was in the sunken place. lol and the women is my psychiatrist!

She even threatened to call security on me. Btw I have never physically assaulted a person, unless it was my sisters fucking with me. I was raising my voice though, for weeks I felt like she was ignoring my top concerns. I have real hard time to concentrate and space out a lot since childhood, and have very short attention span. I told her those were main concerns because they are really affecting my school work. She kept pushing that I was suffering from major depression and anxiety. Today I came for an appointment, printed a lot of pages of research about the subject. And she didn't even want to read them, I highlighted them for her and everything. I skipped school today cause it's like a confirmation for me that nobody truly cares. Not even dam psychiatrist, all she wanted to do was drug me with Valium, Tradozone, and zoloft. I actually didn't mind the wellbutrin xl but I brought all of them in a bag, told her should could keep them and not I'm coming there anymore. I have heard that I can be intimidating before, some from my teachers, maybe cause I'm tall and have anxiety about assignments. But I guess cause of their judgments hard for me to try and make new friends. Anyways I'm drinking Tequila and skipped class today.

I have heard of this song everywhere! lol I knew what it was. I've seen memes about it. Also thank you.

It looks very distinguished! I've just realized I haven't put up any wall paper on my phone. It's plain iphone screensaver.

Corporate tie ups mang. I understand, my assistant manager at my old job would play with MS paint on the register. And my Manager would play all the time on her Ipad.

in your opinion, I get A's in my writing. But you just want to shut me down. And thats what everyone wants to do. So do what you do.

fried alligator isn't really a common food here. But at a fair I'd say a corndog with mustard. At a BBQ, authentic mexican tacos. <3

I actually just watched this too.

It took us thousands of year to get adjusted to her. She was a bit violatile in the beginning. Like that acid rain phase. But she also provides food for us, she lets us explore her body, and we've been treating her badly. We should take care of her.

Its hella bloated with all that salt water.