SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 Trying to quit drinking cold turkey because how else would I do it. After taking out 3 full trash bags of cans for the second time in a month, and getting almost $10 back in deposits again, I think I finally hit the point where I can kick it. So, it's been since Sunday, and been a struggle, though not as bad as the last time I quit a few years ago. But the weird, awful dreams and the sweats during the day are pretty bad. Today was shit, though, because I forgot to take my antidepressants this morning because I was running late, and by about 7-8pm I was feeling the withdrawal. Usually if I forget to take them I don't get hit with the detox bullshit unless I forget for two days in a row, but I think between that and no booze, my body is fucking done. Got the shakes like Michael J Fox, and my old friend distorted depth perception is back. Hope I can actually get to sleep or tomorrows gonna be worse. Kill me.
NaBarney Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 Why so much beer? Why not liquor Sorry that's probably not a helpful line of thought
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 When I was drinking heavily years ago, it was mostly liquor, fucking gallons of it. Managed to quit for almost a year, started up again but was sticking with beer. Easier to control myself, harder to overdo it etc But christ, it adds up. I'm surprised I didn't put weight back on from all this beer if I'm honest. When I was drinking years ago and then quit, that was the only change I made, and I lost 25-30 pounds over like 6 months. I don't even want to think about how much money was poured directly into my liver.
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 My issue today is more to do with forgetting the meds this morning, but things must be compounding because it's usually not quite this intense for only forgetting one day.
Rogue_Alphonse Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 Jesus fuck and I thought I drank a lot.
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 (edited) You should've seen the closet of shame I had when I lived at my apartment, even though I lived alone, I would hide the empty liquor bottles from...myself? My cat? idk. Yeah, it was pretty bad. And then lately I had only been having a 6 pack of tallboys, so really like an 8 pack, towards the end of the week, maybe a 12 on the weekend. That started turning into every other day, and then daily... Fell right back into that stupid cycle. Getting that much back on deposits, though... Doesn't exactly feel good, it's not like returning the cans from a college party, where it's 3 trash bags of cans from like 30-40 people. 100+ beers over the course of 2 weeks. Probably not good. Edited February 16, 2018 by SlappyKincaid
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 (edited) Publicly shaming myself about it helps me accept it and resolve myself to commit to quitting booze. The whole analogy of it being like an abusive girlfriend wasn't something I just came up with, it was a realization I had years ago. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to quit smoking, or hard drugs like pills or heroin. Oh, here's the stupidest part of all of it, as I'm withdrawing and detoxing from forgetting the antidepressants and possibly also booze, alcohol has a negative effect on the drug I'm on, not quite cancelling it out, but coming close, so not only am I not helping myself, I still get the wondrous effects of forgetting the pills while making them not as effective at treating my mental health. Shooting myself in both feet in order to get goofy on beer. Hopefully someone will learn from my past mistakes. Hopefully me, but my track record isn't the best. Edited February 16, 2018 by SlappyKincaid
Rogue_Alphonse Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 6:16 AM, SlappyKincaid said: You should've seen the closet of shame I had when I lived at my apartment, even though I lived alone, I would hide the empty liquor bottles from...myself? My cat? idk. Yeah, it was pretty bad. And then lately I had only been having a 6 pack of tallboys, so really like an 8 pack, towards the end of the week, maybe a 12 on the weekend. That started turning into every other day, and then daily... Fell right back into that stupid cycle. Getting that much back on deposits, though... Doesn't exactly feel good, it's not like returning the cans from a college party, where it's 3 trash bags of cans from like 30-40 people. 100+ beers over the course of 2 weeks. Probably not good. Expand I built a bar and drink less now because I know it'll be expensive to replace what I drank.
NaBarney Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 (edited) On 2/16/2018 at 6:22 AM, SlappyKincaid said: Publicly shaming myself about it helps me accept it and resolve myself to commit to quitting booze. Expand Well then you did good sharing your insecurities and shortcomings here, collectively we're pretty good at making sure to remind you of your failures if and when you ever stumble, relish it really. We got your back you drunken fool Less helpful note but man it's been awhile and this thread really made me want a beer so I just bought a six pack. Edited February 16, 2018 by Nabloom
Poof Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 I’m not exactly the poster child for sobriety smoke weed instead maybe? work out too. Hard. Stabilizes mood kills stress
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 Weed gives me panic attacks and extreme paranoia, what with the anxiety. And I basically exercise at my job, moving bags of pet food around, which is probably why I didn't gain back weight. Running out of vices. Can't afford coke, I like having teeth so meth's out. I could take up killing for sport I guess, but who has the time these days?
Doom Metal Alchemist Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 8:02 AM, SlappyKincaid said: Weed gives me panic attacks and extreme paranoia, what with the anxiety. And I basically exercise at my job, moving bags of pet food around, which is probably why I didn't gain back weight. Running out of vices. Can't afford coke, I like having teeth so meth's out. I could take up killing for sport I guess, but who has the time these days? Expand Caffeine? Sugar? (beware of diabetes though)
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 8:11 AM, Doom Metal Alchemist said: Caffeine? Sugar? (beware of diabetes though) Expand coffee is a staple food for me, but thats going to basically be my last vice. Along with furiously masturbating, I suppose, but is that really a vice anymore? its 2018
André Toulon Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 (edited) Do you know how many kill me thread I've made of this exact nature?......Feel your pain. and I will literally feel your pain by Tuesday because It's the weekend and It's time to get blackout. Edited February 16, 2018 by Noboru Yamaguchi Eat some Subway dude
discolé monade Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 have you tried 'weed' to cope with the withdraws? i know many people that do this. my ex father in law was a raging alcoholic. and by the time he quit, he too had the terrible shakes detox. he's been using weed for over 25 years now. just a thought.
NaBarney Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 Yeah keep trying weed until it works. It's scary but it gets better
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 I appreciate the suggestions, but I think I'd take the withdrawal over the panic attacks
SlappyKincaid Posted February 16, 2018 Author Posted February 16, 2018 I feel like I should clarify that most of the withdrawal is probably from forgetting my prescription yesterday, but coupled with the no booze, I think it was just a double-hit to my brian chemicals. I was having the weird dreams and the sweats all week from not drinking, though, that I can confirm. The shakes and mild hallucinations were definitely from missing the pills, it's happened before, it was just surprisingly intense for being only one day without them. Also, I slept like shit, flopping around, weird dreams that weren't quite nightmares but weren't exactly fun either. Too hot, too cold, too hot with a blanket and one leg out of the blanket, too cold with no blanket. It was like having a fever, but I don't think cowbell would've helped.
André Toulon Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 4:33 PM, SlappyKincaid said: I feel like I should clarify that most of the withdrawal is probably from forgetting my prescription yesterday, but coupled with the no booze, I think it was just a double-hit to my brian chemicals. I was having the weird dreams and the sweats all week from not drinking, though, that I can confirm. The shakes and mild hallucinations were definitely from missing the pills, it's happened before, it was just surprisingly intense for being only one day without them. Also, I slept like shit, flopping around, weird dreams that weren't quite nightmares but weren't exactly fun either. Too hot, too cold, too hot with a blanket and one leg out of the blanket, too cold with no blanket. It was like having a fever, but I don't think cowbell would've helped. Expand This is a very accurate painting of my benders when they are over......I know all of this way too well and I really hate you are going through this 1
Juice McKenzie Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 God I hate the withdraw feeling. I should talk with my doctor who prescribed my medication and see if I really need to keep taking it. I might not be a sad little bitch I was when I was younger.
discolé monade Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 8:02 AM, SlappyKincaid said: Weed gives me panic attacks and extreme paranoia, what with the anxiety. And I basically exercise at my job, moving bags of pet food around, which is probably why I didn't gain back weight. Running out of vices. Can't afford coke, I like having teeth so meth's out. I could take up killing for sport I guess, but who has the time these days? Expand wrong strain. j/s but, i wish you much success.
death_by_motorboat Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 4:58 AM, SlappyKincaid said: Trying to quit drinking cold turkey because how else would I do it. After taking out 3 full trash bags of cans for the second time in a month, and getting almost $10 back in deposits again, I think I finally hit the point where I can kick it. So, it's been since Sunday, and been a struggle, though not as bad as the last time I quit a few years ago. But the weird, awful dreams and the sweats during the day are pretty bad. Today was shit, though, because I forgot to take my antidepressants this morning because I was running late, and by about 7-8pm I was feeling the withdrawal. Usually if I forget to take them I don't get hit with the detox bullshit unless I forget for two days in a row, but I think between that and no booze, my body is fucking done. Got the shakes like Michael J Fox, and my old friend distorted depth perception is back. Hope I can actually get to sleep or tomorrows gonna be worse. Kill me. Expand oh man i had to read that twice. so why dont you take your pills now?
Poof Posted February 16, 2018 Posted February 16, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 4:33 PM, SlappyKincaid said: Also, I slept like shit, flopping around, weird dreams that weren't quite nightmares but weren't exactly fun either. Too hot, too cold, too hot with a blanket and one leg out of the blanket, too cold with no blanket. It was like having a fever, but I don't think cowbell would've helped. Expand The butt is the regulator. A leg won’t do it. If ur too hot let them butt out. Too cold cover the butt.
SlappyKincaid Posted February 17, 2018 Author Posted February 17, 2018 On 2/16/2018 at 7:30 PM, mumbojummie13 said: oh man i had to read that twice. so why dont you take your pills now? Expand I took them in the morning, if I took them that night, it would gradually screw up my whole routine, and I don't want to take double in a short amount of time because of how high the dosage is
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