jackiemarie90

*grabs your ass* How you doin?

Oks, go ahead.

Idk it was, he likes to get close when we watched movies in his dorms and we are always sharing a vape. lol @Gina Szanboti what is the 22 conference? lol

I think so. He really is a nice guy to talk too. Plus he doesn't talk much so I think a part of him is shy, but idk. He has been texting me since then and our convos are fairly normal.

Still thorsday in the west coast.

I mean, it makes sense. Honestly it’s kinda hilarious how guys seem like you are always thinking about sex. Makes me feel powerful when I say no.

I think that’s a possibility. I just hope that’s what he wants eventually but idk. My other friend said I should talk to him about it.

My other friend just sent me pics of us dancing and I’m like 😱@_@

Idk I like him tho, just wish it was more romantic and not sexual focused. He was respectful for the rest of the night.

Is this real jimrival? Welcome back!

It’s tan

We broke up over the summer.

Is this what be going on in guys heads while dancing?

I’m just a relationship kinda girl personally. I hate be treated as a sexual object with out any affection. I thrive on affection and feel used with out personally.

I mean, I do love reverse harems. 😏

I mean I don’t want to make other people grab my ass if they don’t want too. >.>

Yup pretty much. I’m still talking to him, but since we were both hella faded on NYE we haven’t really talked about it.

No I let him touch me. He wasn't overstepping boundaries, I just don't know how I feel about all this new interaction, and I wish our interactions were more sweet instead of outright sexual.

Is this my life now, talking about my social life encounters here? Yeah probably. I went to see Deadmau5 live on new years in SF. It's like of the biggest concerts I've been too, an it was so fun the music was cool, and I went with my friend who I have been hanging out with the last time I went to an EDM concert. And the same guy who I've been studying with and gave me weed. Well we took sharooms, with molly mixed in water and were smoking weed and drinking before the concert. And everybody was already high going in, and I've been talking to my friend for awhile but the moment we hit the dance floor, things were heating up real fast. >__> Like I was dancing grinding but then he was getting really gropey. <__< At first I didn't mind cause I thought he may have been interested in a relationship, but honestly, I think he just wanted to be friends with benefits. And Idk how I feel about that, I haven't made that step before and tend to crave emotional intimacy. He didn't even seem interested in kissing me, I leaned in, but he was more focused on touching my body. I liked dancing with him, and I like talking to him when he isn't completely intoxicated, but since I'll be taking classes with him next semester I just don't think it would be best screw around as friends. Actually I don't think I can handle that cause I would want to move on to someone who will actually care. I want someone to ask me how I'm doing, someone to take care of me and want more than just my body. Look man, I don't how to be single out here in these streets, I'm an awkward as shit nerd.

Happy New Year!

I mean, I travelled, went to a university, and messed up a lot of relationships. lol

Happy birthday!

Still a better new years than me.

I don't know, I feel more of a wreck than last year already.