jackiemarie90

Not right away, but I'm open to the idea.

I honestly don’t know and I’m not going stress about it until it is confirmed. Lol

True, could have sneaked out the window and I was alone like I always am.

I feel like mine have gotten worse in this new stressful environment, and having no one. Idk, I've been going to therapy but I need to go visit the psychiatrist for medication. Specifically for focus for school and maybe an antidepressant so I can stop wallowing and start doing more.

Wow seems like you got a good grasp on your interpretations. I smoke so much, that I hardly remember my dreams these days. XD

Added to the fact that I have little friends in irl that don't like it when I talk about these things and no supportive family. We started talking about the day we got our acceptance letters and who felt proud for us. I told them my family still doesn't know but what I was thinking the whole time, was the the board members here are my family that have been tremendously supportive of me in this venture. I'm honestly lucky I have close ties to this place, cause I feel like you guys are the ones cheering me on the most. ❤️

Cause I'm a light sleeper, every time I moved he woke up, and then went back to bed. Plus we were sleeping on a twin size mattress.

Maybe, I'm feel like I should talk to him about how he feels about kissing.

I OVERTHINK EVERYTHING. It's hell on earth!!! XD Like yeah it's good for school but the anxiety is so freaking high. lol I wasn't tense, but I might try to be more forward in the future.

He has already kissed me, twice, but the whole night he didn’t.

He grabs me all the time, he grabs my leg, arm, and was rubbing my lower back yesterday. Yet, I don't know what to do when he does that. I freeze up, I'm afraid I might misinterpret his signals. But if he is willing to grab me so provocatively, wouldn't that mean that he would go up and kiss me if he wanted? Which makes me think he doesn't.

lol true. Idk, I'd like a bit of privacy. >__>

Maybe sometime this semester that might happen, but for now, I'm going to be chilling in a co-op with other students, don't think I'll have the same opportunities.

The '90 in my sn is my birth year. Maybe I should be forward, I've been afraid of being forward this whole time.

I'm just afraid that he really doesn't like me, that he only likes having someone warm next to him. Then again, maybe no kiss cause he wasn't able to brush his teeth. XD Idk, I'm scared on asking for a kiss because I feel like the person doesn't want it.

What are you supposed to do when a kitty gets sick?

Loving someone who loves you back.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

What are they saying. 😨

And not much happened, or really anything. We were celebrating him getting on a scholars board, new job, and research opportunity. Drinking and smoking, and we just watched some shows and the avengers. And we were cuddling, eventually spooning but that's it, just holding each, and at the end, their was no kiss. At one point, I faced him and it seemed like we were, but my stupid ass was like, "Can you pass the vape?" 😓 He wanted to sleep on our sides, and I always sleep on my back, so I broke the spooning lol. But still, I'm so confused what is going on between us, but we also signed up for our lab and discussion classes together this morning. So I'm afraid of pressing the issue that it might it might affect our already heavy loaded semester. The curriculum in that class is one of the most intense ones on campus and everyone really wants to protect their GPA for grad school and other internship, scholarship and other opportunities. I think for the both of us we just want human connection. We both have baggage, who doesn't, and in these lonely times people just like to be near someone and have someone to hold. And that's why things are the way they are I guess. Idk, I just don't want to make the guy uncomfortable and I'm ok moving at this pace because I don't want to ruin the semester. But now I'm being guarded on how much I open and give since everything is so uncertain. Anyways I'm moving into a cramped co-op on campus with a roommate now so probably not gonna be stories of someone visiting my room, more just me still confused on how to be social. lmao

All I gots are my pokemoms and stuffed bears

Do you have a Yu gi oh deck? >_>

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In hands because god is what you make it?

Is this an impersonation of millennial or older? I do not sense sarcasm as easily. >_> Or just real random feelings? Cause I’m millennial that charges my phone constantly, twerks a lot, and eat chips. But not the others lmao