jackiemarie90

They gave $4000 because they felt bad that I had no where to live, so I ran away on this trip. But it may not have been the best move mentally. Cause they still love the people who did the actions that got me kicked out. Feels like they paid me to leave

The truth multiple people keep telling that I don't want to accept

This seems highly accurate from what I have seen from Egypt.

lol had another mental breakdown and heading towards Bangkok, Thailand. XD luuuuulzz

Yeah one of the first things I read was doing backpacking trips in Egypt was a big no-no because of the activity going on with the Libyan border. I actually did run into some not so fun activity here in Luxor and I hate this town cause it feels like it really tries to trap tourists here. Actually having another mental breakdown now and gonna head toward Thailand instead of Greece.

I fell fo it. ha ha

Bitch my breakdowns got me banned from fucking housing and lost so many fucking friends. They talked shit about me for weeks to 100s of people!! I don't even have a place to live in the U.S. anymore I fucking hate my fucking breakdowns. *laugh cries*

Honestly, I'm kinda sad I booked my ticket already to Greece, because I wouldn't mind staying in this country longer. I think it's wonderful! Granted, I have privileges that the local women don't have here. Simply because I am American. But I find that people have been nothing but friendly to me here. Locals mention all the time how I look Arabian/Egyptian, and I do think people harass me less because that. Like they don't think I have as much money as the white/blonde tourist. Which is actually true. XD I'm also not afraid to cross the streets, walk 10 miles a day, and try to order the food when I don't know the language. Most people understand the phrase "How much?" and when they realize I mostly speak English then they get curious if I'm American. I did talk to 2 of Arab friends back home about Arabian culture, and they said that people here actually love Americans, and it's true. I think they the U.S. has a lot of power and that for years Arabs were getting a bad reputation in the U.S. but people really seem eager to disprove those stereotypes. I actually felt like the people here are really warm and kind and help whenever I need it. The food is uh-mazing!! I mean it, I've been to 5 continents now and Egyptian food slaps hard!! In fact, I've visited 4 cities in Italy, and I'm not afraid to say, Egyptian food > Italian food!! So many delicious shawarma roasting everywhere! Tons of cheeses and fresh veggies *drools all over laptop* And the food is so cheap! You can get a feast for $4!!! That is to say not everything is perfect. It still the desert with crazy dust storms and weather over 90 degrees and you still have to dress conservatively! Honestly a headscarf and long dress just seem practical in these conditions. In all my pics my hair is flying everywhere because of the winds. XD Egypt is still one of the places in the world where you can smoke anywhere indoors, and everyone does. And the Egyptian cigarettes go harder than back home. Chocked fulled with tar and nicotine. >__> hard to find some fresh air but when you do, everything is lovely. It also isn't the most accessible place in the world. Not many elevators in tall buildings, roads turning to sand, so much san that I always end up bringing back in my bed every night. XD But I do enjoy it here, and had I known I would thrive here, I would have spent more time in Alexandria and maybe Aswan too. But these are lessons for someone else, or maybe if I am lucky, I can come back here again. XD

So when I was living in student housing, I did find someone to play yu-gi-oh with on my birthday but I lost and got sent to the shadow realm. But now that I have the Pharaoh's blessing and the power of one egyptian god, I feel like I can go back for a rematch. XD

I was having bad episodes in the house. They knew my depression was getting bad, but it wasn't until they decided to kick me out that they thought then it was a good idea to place me in a facility. They knew I had no home to go to, and they knew that losing housing is something that can destroy a person's mind, so they were going to ignore 72 hour eviction laws, and force into a facility that night. Luckily, I was smart enough to figure out their lies. But still lost housing, still lost friends, and now I just really don't want to ever be put in a position where people for months tell me that I deserve this.

I wish I felt like I had a place in the states. But being rejected by my mother, and running away from home. Being kicked out of student housing, having people harass and hurt me honestly makes me want to die back home. I've been in a heavy depression for a year now. I haven't talked alot about what happened. But I had friends try to force in a mental facility back in Berkeley. They have made it clear in so many god dam ways that I don't belong there. I felt happiness that I hadn't felt for the first time in a long time yesterday. It was brief, but I recognized that in that moment, being away from the States was what I needed. I am listening to my friend tho, and I am going to cut my time here in Egypt short one week, so I'm going to be here for 3 weeks. I also am staying in a hostel with other expats. It's great way to not be lonely in a new country, and they give great advice on where to visit, and people go together too. But I'm not going back to the states anytime soon. I bought my ticket for Greece afterwards.

Yeah, I'm also gonna not walk the city as much these days. Definitely thinking about leaving earlier than I was planning.

Not yet but the police dogs are so fluffy and large!! Cairo does have a ton of street cats tho. =^_^= Also no, but I think he would a great contestant cause he is a nice, sweet person.

Well he is religious, and he said I think god put us together to learn from each other. I'm talking about what is like in the U.S. prices and living situation. Plus a lot of things he wants in life are the same things I wanted when I was 21. I told him that things might change over time, and he might find those things won't make him happy later. But I do like his 3 year plan. And I told him about being kicked out of my housing and how the first guy I dated at Cal hit me. And he was giving me advice on how to be stronger even if people make moves to kick you out.

He might be bisexual, but i get the feeling it may not be. We were talking about ex's and he said he only had 3 partners. Specifically partners and not women. And yeah, I think biggest challenge for me is not being loud and saying something stupid. I need to be more careful

Lol we didn't get my phone fixed, and we just hung out, went to get coffee, went to Cairo tower and then got an Egyptian dinner. ❤️ But he dropped that a person can be happy with one person, doesn't matter man or woman. And he kept talking about how living in Egypt was incredibly limiting for him. And how he dreams so much of coming to the U.S. or Canada. He also said he was really concerned for me staying in Egypt, and that he thinks it shouldn't be too long. He commented how I loud voice and don't always pay attention where I'm walking. Plus I had no other friends in Egypt and I should have someone to talk to and he is gonna check up on me everyday. He was also just very sweet and talking about he was a sensitive man with a lot of feelings. I am glad I met a friend like him in Egypt. ^__^

HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO TALK ABOUT THE MEN IN MY LIFE NOW?!

That's more social interaction I've had with any date in the past year. XD

This makes me so happy after living in a house with 20 something's for a over a year. I kept trying to tell them that I am baby, but they never understood what that meant. I love be babied, cause I feel I have to do so much to survive everyday. XD Thank you, will do! ❤️

Yeah, I'm learning about that. Guys are shouting at me to follow them too, but one thing that I got going for me is that I'm tall and can walk away really fast from a situation from all the hiking I've done. XD

He said he is gonna give me is old one. ^__^

IT'S ACTUALLY THE OPPOSITE!! As far as backpacking different cities around the world, on a scale of difficulty from 1 to 5, 5 being the hardest level to survive without knowing the local language and understanding prices. I would rate Japan as a 2 in ease of living, and I would rate Cairo either a 4 or 5 on extreme difficulty of living. For one, Japan caters to tourists, there are plenty of English signs everywhere, and many of the people in government jobs speak English as well. It's also very metropolitan, and clean streets with traffic laws easy to move around. The food is all labelled and priced so you know what you are getting into. Cairo on the other hand, has like, practically no traffic laws. The streets are very chaotic. The only other place I've been with extreme traffic similarily was in Lima, Peru. Except I think Cairo is waaaay more hectic in the streets. I'm lucky no one in my family had a car so I grew jay walking. and found that I can easily adapt to the crazy street crossings around the world. There are like no english signs either, mostly arabic. And people always give you a higher price expecting you to bargain your way down, which can be harder if you don't speak the language. And also the men at Cairo will leer at you for a long ass time if you are a woman who doesn't wear a headscarf either. XD

Exactly! Be scared of both children and always question people's intentions, even if they are good.