jackiemarie90

It's good reminder to get out of ones own head too. Cause what my mind is telling me, isn't always true either.

Agreed, self righteousness can really blow when they try to throw out you, its good to have ammo for those type of things.

I don't understand. >__>

I feel like there is no plan in life how things can go, and people we think are doing better, we won't understand unless they directly tell us. Social media is a veil of how we think life is, but not the truth.

I should be doing my homework and cleaning around the house more.

Dayum girl, that's that deep church gossip! lol I got the quick rundown of what is going on in general with peoples lives, I've been out of touch moving to a different town.

That don't sound too bad. I kinda wanna be drinking, but supposed to be detoxing for the doctor.

It feels even crazier when it's people you grow up with you know? But also humbling. And it is making me grateful for some things in my life.

That is a way more mature way of looking at things. You do have a lot of understanding how the world should work, versus what people choose. An admirable trait.

I've been doing it, but it hasn't been going good for me.

Idk, I did know the people she was talking about growing up. And I didn't know what they were going through, I felt like such a failure, honestly, it helped put me into perspective. Plus I ain't gonna mention names.

lol I think everyone goes through insane shit throughout life. It's a humbling reminder that I'm not the only feel like I'm going through stuff, but I do think I am managing things better than others. >__>

Most definitely. I honestly thought, well what I have is manageble and I am currently getting treatment for it. But some peoples lives are completely changed right now. And people who cussed me out before turns out they have borderline personality, so I shouldn't be upset about what they think of me.

But is it more money?

Thanks Sandy, it was a particular bad day but I think I'm doing better. I also think I need to give it more time, like others have mentioned. <3

Cause I just had lunch with my old youth pastor, and she she spilled all the gossip I was missing and mah gawd, there are people going through way worst. People with worse mental illnesses, 15 years in prison, and other stuff. I was like OH DAMN! Suddenly I don't seem like a screw up. Why is church gossip always so juicy and cray.

I know.>__> I need to give it time, but I'm an american, and I like instant gratification. lol

First of all, I believe in you, you can do it sooner! Cause you a badass and you can rock those runs!

I think I was just bitching. I should be lucky that I was able to complete 5 miles, idk, I guess I've been in a rut for awhile.

I've been a runner before, so I just need to build up my stamina again, it's hard being a long distance runner after a couple of years of not running.

Yay parents come through! lol

I do agree with that. idk, gotta exercise more I guess. lol

I'm gonna wait till God of War 4 comes out to play games probably.

Another episode I think you would like too is Fifteen million merits in season 1, it's looks at a new way of an economic system in society with an intriguing twist. But each one plays out like a mini movie. But those three are my recommendations for you. lol

Well I'm gonna need to routine for at least a month. lol