Poof Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 I couldn’t sleep at all. I’ve just been up. And it’s not like I have a job. It’s not like I missed my chance to sleep but now I have to go to work or school. I could sleep at anytime then work when I get up. Just legit insomnia. I woke up at 9am yesterday after going to bed at like 4am. Only five hours of sleep but still can’t sleep yet! That’s 23 hours awake so far. i just want to sleep! or magically rearrange the world to operate on some non-24 cycle that works for me i guess I just won’t sleep yet and I’ll just find out when my body decides its bedtime. i keep getting twitter followers. I get like 50-200 each day. I predict I’ll be at 70k on feb 5th. I bet they’re all fake bc I don’t know why I’m still getting them. I don’t post new pics. I haven’t filmed anything new in a year. I’ve just been doing private shows which shouldn’t be netting new followers unless ppl are sharing the private video chat which they are bc I know they are bc rj told me. Also, let’s be honest Michelle, sometimes the real baller ones will just give it to u if you ask. Leaving you free to do fuck all. Which u will waste bc u are the stereotypical porn whore. When is your luck and good looks gonna run out? Why does it always feel like you’re on the cusp of total failure? Like dirty gross scary homeless failure that never seems to come? Once my shelf life is up it’ll come. Or it won’t bc I’ll just film other ppl instead of myself which is called being a director. Or I’ll just perform forever. I miss Chelsea. I said to her “You can’t do porn forever” to which she replied “Yes you can” I’m not sure which of us is right. If she’s right I bet you my granny porn days will be the wildest of them all. She’s kinda right. Most girls age out bc they can only do it if they’re an it girl. Then when they have to switch gears they just abandon ship entirely. If u stay disciplined enough, you don’t have to age out. You just need to switch the marketing. Tgirls have longer shelf life anyway. And as much as I hate my lil girl she can make $$$. They say u lose your audience when u go post-op. Makes sense I guess? It’s very cruel what ppl say to post-ops. “A post-op tgirl is pointless. If I wanted to fuck pussy I’d get a real one” very tactful thank you sir. Tgirl pornstars still say faggot to each other. The rest of the world may be erasing that term but it’s alive and well in our little niche. We don’t call each other that. It’s what we call our fans. Typical TS Pornstar A to Typical TS Pornstar B, “Aren’t these faggots so fucking nauseating?” “Sorry what? I was looking at my phone this faggot was wasting my time. He wanted me to call him a faggot but he wouldn’t send $$$ so fuck him blocked lol fucking fag” “omg fucking faggot” I definitely get it now. When I started I was like “I won’t ever call a fan that” well little miss meech that was before u knew exactly how insane they are. People seriously send you stuff like “I want to be gangbanged bareback by 12 big TS cocks until im full of cum then I push it out and im made to eat it, but no, I’m not gay. I’m attracted to their beauty” it’s like wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf 1000 times wtf. Yes, there are guys who are attracted to the feminine beauty of ts, you are not one of them. Those guys prefer to not touch our dicks like at all. Now, there certainly isn’t anything wrong w/wanting 12 ts to run a train on your ass, but it’s gay as fuck and you are gay. Which is fine. But jeeeeeez cmon how can you not see it? Another thing they’ll do. They’ll ask you “Am I gay for liking TS?” You say “only if u want to suck the dick” then they respond w/like 5 paragraphs about why you’re wrong and they’re right that it’s not gay if they suck ur cock. anyway I should probably get out of this bath & eat some breakfast and... sleep? Maybe. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mix Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 [smirks and waits for @Gogo Yubari to arrive and mock you mercilessly about the bountiful five whole fucking hours your benevolent God has seen fit to bless you with] The cusp of total failure is going to be the title of my memoirs....thanks, I'll be sure to credit you :Smileyhatsoff: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
André Toulon Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 3 minutes ago, Mix said: [smirks and waits for @Gogo Yubari to arrive and mock you mercilessly about the bountiful five whole fucking hours your benevolent God has seen fit to bless you with] The cusp of total failure is going to be the title of my memoirs....thanks, I'll be sure to credit you :Smileyhatsoff: Nah, I slept like a full 7.....Alcohol was involved, but 7 hrs none the less Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mix Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 (edited) 16 minutes ago, Gogo Yubari said: Nah, I slept like a full 7.....Alcohol was involved, but 7 hrs none the less great.....that's great....I'm happy for you what, I am happy for you....nothing but positive thoughts....i'm offended you'd think otherwise Edited January 22, 2018 by Mix Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted January 22, 2018 Author Share Posted January 22, 2018 49 minutes ago, mthor said: I'm not going to bore you with melatonin and chamomile tea - you know all that. But I really feel you with the aging out thing, and it's a possibility with anything - I'm dealing with it right now, and I'm in nursing, not in porn. Make a back up plan, baby. I wish I had. When do nurses start to age out? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted January 22, 2018 Author Share Posted January 22, 2018 35 minutes ago, Mix said: [smirks and waits for @Gogo Yubari to arrive and mock you mercilessly about the bountiful five whole fucking hours your benevolent God has seen fit to bless you with]: It was five hours of sleep 25 hours ago 35 minutes ago, Mix said: The cusp of total failure is going to be the title of my memoirs....thanks, I'll be sure to credit you :Smileyhatsoff: Prepare for litigation ! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mix Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 10 minutes ago, Poof said: It was five hours of sleep 25 hours ago Prepare for litigation ! and? that's plenty.....When I was young we couldn't afford even half that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Poof Posted January 22, 2018 Author Share Posted January 22, 2018 Shhh Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mix Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 12 minutes ago, Poof said: Prepare for litigation ! I will own you......I mean that literally, like my counter suit will go so well they will bring back slavery... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GunStarHero Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 Porn comments are some of the most insane shit I have ever read in my life. The smug sense of ownership some of these people feel over the performers is asinine. And there's just nothing you can do for these lunatics. Small boobs? She needs implants! Got implants? Wow nice bolt ons whore! Oh we love natural girls! Oh we hate natural girls! I'm paying you to perform so you better disfigure your body solely for my pleasure! Better hunt this woman down and stab her so she knows I love her! Fuckin' ludicrous. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vamped Posted January 22, 2018 Share Posted January 22, 2018 5 hours ago, Poof said: “I want to be gangbanged bareback by 12 big TS cocks until im full of cum then I push it out and im made to eat it, but no, I’m not gay. I’m attracted to their beauty” it’s like wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf 1000 times wtf. Thaaaaats pretty gay to me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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