MEXobiologist

meh, i've got it down to a science. i tend to get unexpectedly sleepy like a kitty and require naps out of nowhere. so whether it be on a break at work or when i'm out for the night with friends, i very frequently slip into my car for 10 minute to 2 hour naps. there is a giraffe pillow pet and small fleece blanket in my car always for such occasions. haha! i don't know how people just don't have these things in their cars just in case.

see now, you get it, i get it, there seems to be plenty of people who DO get it.... so how in the world is it that so many do not? or is it just that we are simply not as loud as the power players who seem to stoke the fires and affirm peoples fears? when it comes to the internet, i simply just do not get involved in arguments with strangers because it seems to me a waste of time and energy. like trying to convince a brick wall that it should move or become a doorway because they are blocking peoples path. its just not gonna happen. who or what has to come along in order for these manipulated people to see what they are doing to themselves and others by not applying rational thought and common sense to that which they fear? i dunno. its just frustrating and really it's my own fault. i know better but i still let it offend me that someone should assume to tell others that they should be in fear. like i'm some feeble minded creature that should cower or lash out irresponsibly instead of pressing forward productively or at least tirelessly attempting to do so, as has always been the case of man in face of adversity. our brains give us an advantage over instincts which should not ever be taken advantage of.

i have four managers, essentially four different bosses. i don't hate any of them but i do get sick of some of their attitudes and cleaning up behind them. the store manager is a reasonable woman who just once in a while gets cranky under stress but ultimately has my back no matter what. the ops manager is a man prone to dramatic mood swings and is a bit sexist in his beliefs for what women should do, so thats the most annoying. and the two young merch manager girls are basically only good for swinging their weight with the manager label when unruly customers refuse to deal with one of us department heads/coordinators/supervisors. i think because they have to be able to remember so much more, they just don't really know as much about our merchandising standards, ada guidlines, hazards, and what not. so we mostly just do their job for that and use them as extra hands to help our big department switches. lol, whenever i go on vacation, i have to come back and change everything they did so that it looks nice, makes sense, and is to corporate standard. its always a hot mess. hahaha! i've noticed its sort of always been like this. i've either been friends with or liked all my managers/bosses growing up. it seems in the land of retail that i've experienced in my life, the worst people were always the district managers. the longest employment i've ever had was self employment so yeah, that was cool. i once worked in a tanning and hair salon for an ex boyfriends mother. again, i was basically my own boss and more or less took care of everything for her but bills because she hadn't a clue what she was doing, so she listened to me. idk, i guess i've mostly been lucky or at least very tolerable of the little shit and having to do other peoples work.

i don't care too much for money cuz money can't buy me love

and just like that, my mexica lineage rears it's savage ritualistic head

but not the hey hey heeeyyyyyyys and no regular baths

does this mean i am forever destined to be abandoned in front of churches?

woah woah woah... i'm assuming this is some video game thing and i don't know about those things. HOWEVER, really, they should make a controversial epic brutal video game about the journey to manger baby jebus. you know... get people interested in christmas again, haha

i know how that baby's story ends! nuh uh! can't i just be the star of bethlehem... or some shit?

is that what we're calling anal these days?

but how is it catching up to you?? is it that people now suck as a result of you not caring or is it that people suck as a result of you now caring?

its the difference of being aware and prepared in the event that someone should be in your home when no one should be vs. never allowing yourself to be alone because you know there are people out there who break into homes. i fully understand the reasons we fear and the necessity of it for survival to an extent. just the same as i understand the necessity of pain to survival. unfortunately, both are easily used in manipulative manners in order to motivate others into getting a specific desired result. that is what i detest and reject most.

or, you could up your intake and come help me decorate my house in all the twinkling spirit of this particular consumer holiday the results will be pretty.

sometimes to make themselves feel good, sometimes to make others feel good, sometimes both.... literally and metaphorically really. just depends on the situation at hand and the individual participants i suppose.

i... i am unsure if i am reading/interpreting this correctly.

i've never been one to believe its right to allow fear to control ones thoughts and actions, it is counter productive and debilitating. the unknown factors of life are uncomfortable and potentially dangerous to ones livelihood and so the natural reaction is to fear them. that is biological. fortunately, our brains are so complex that we are given the ability to apply rational thought and common sense to those fears, if only people would take a minute to think about why it is they are afraid to begin with, learn about it, and arm themselves with the best knowledge available to defend themselves against the subject of those fears, should they ever come to face them. simply telling people over and over that they should be afraid of something because xxx happens/will happen, just spreads irrational panic resulting in irrational behaviors. as a female, i've basically been told my whole life to fear men because they rape women. rape. what an awful and scary experience to go through... and one that is not so uncommon. so what should i do then? do i fear and dismiss all men as rapist pigs because there are those whom are deplorable human beings that prey upon others? or is that an irrational (also sexist) response and maybe if i recognized the reality of the existence of such a thing, i could educate myself on how to properly defend, if givin the chance during such an encounter. or if not, as is the case frequently, i can at least do the best to educate myself on the psychological aftermath. trust me, i know first hand that kind of shit isn't easy... but it certainly can help make a world of difference to mentally equip myself in an effort to stave off the harm to both myself and innocent others which arise from irrational ideas. now thats how i feel about the subject in general, its not a new conclusion by any means. where it is coming from in this post is that lately, whether from the mouths of family, friends, strangers, social media, television, radio, magazines, or newspapers due to the recent political state of things, i keep hearing the phrase over and over and over "people are afraid and they should be" or other versions of the same damn thing. i should be afraid because i'm a half latina female that lives more or less paycheck to paycheck.... among many other things, and as such have all the odds stacked up against me. but i'm over here like, no, fuck you. you think any of this shit is new? i see how that fear mongering bullshit is warping common sense and thought processes. its the same as anything else, packaged with a different label. i'm just sick of hearing it and watching it be beat into peoples heads until they are convinced they should be and spread it like a disease to others, effectively disabling their ability to work forward productively. i'll be aware, i won't be afraid.

slice of pecan pie with my coffee cuz, sugar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! zing!

sure, fear is a natural reaction to the dangers posed against ones person. i fucking get that. but for the love of whatever, please stop selling the idea that people are afraid and that they should be. that is a crippling sentiment that is all the rage right now. fuck that. keep educated and aware of the dangers posed against yourself, then be prepared to defend against them. anyone else feeling this these days?

disco just posted this on staging "not sure if this will be a long lasting thing. so...just in case... about teh traveling shot glass. i decided. with much deliberation that teh traveling shot glass...should go to the architect as i may, or may not have, formally dubbed her @duzitickle i know that people will be pissed, because this may have been the 1st year they participated. well..like all good things..or at least things that are comfortable they must come to an end. as the boards did as we knew them. we signed up for this tour, knowing full well, the anarchy, the controlled chaos, that was the 'boards' everything from fur carpet to who controls the knobs. we didn't speak of a certain number, and we couldn't wait to say 'shut up scoob' we knew what we were getting ourselves into, and day in and day out, we came back to the 'dumpster fire', to add our kindlin'. some i know beyond the abyss of [asmb], and i am thankful not a bad bunch of coconuts, in my honest opinion. for those 'basement dweller's that are so pissed at the world... just get out, and BE in the world. i got a joint to smoke, a barley pop to drink, and some shit to crochet. peace, love, happiness." so if you want to play, you will have to somehow get that glass from duzi, or start over... for the third time this year.

The perfect utopia... a life without conflict means death. Discuss or share your own.

i will sing along out loud to any song in japanese, korean, or spanish that i actually know the lyrics to, since those are the only languages my mouth and brain can seem to handle the pronunciation of. so no, its not embarrassing because i don't know what the lyrics are, its just sometimes embarrassing that i'm singing aloud because i can't sing for shit. lol.

thanks mthor, a few of you seem to get it! its bad enough that people seem to by and large really only take notice when its a presidential election. but then you get the hoards of ignorant twats whom seem to believe thats the only thing to decide on in the entire ballot. forget all the proposals, state, and local representatives that might be on that. its not like thats what makes the biggest difference or anything. then errrrrbody wants to blame someone else when one or more of those people/proposals effect themselves or their locality in a negative way. the way i see it, if you don't vote for anything, you have zero rights to bitch about the outcome. or by all mean do bitch, but don't expect people to take your opinions seriously when you did exactly nothing to attempt to prevent it.

You must live in a bigger city with semi efficient public transportation. I would rather crawl across frozen concrete with bare hands and knees than take the bus here.

Typically its the right nipple that is most sensitive to affections. So I choose right boob... unless that means I lose left boob. If thats the case, I lied. Both boobs are samez, I can't choose.

Meh... not enough spanking.