discolé monade

thank you.

this is dumb.

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^the power of christ compels you...

you can tune a piano, but you can't tuna fish.

fuck all of this shit. i'm bagging THIS fucking turkey.

was never a real heavy metal fan. but there were a few that i would mosh to. loved LOVED these guys.

also digitial, right? they need to remake this like NOW. also, i noticed RE4 remake. the game play was ...difficult, that is, it wouldn't allow me to move the way I wanted, forced me to go a certain way. was so disappointed.

i never thought i would be this person. i feel like the 'angel of death'. hospice upped the morphine dosage. feeding is almost non~existant. trying to keep this man as comfortable as possible. i made the call yesterday. hospice nurse said it may be time to transport him to inpatient hospice care. i said 'i made a promise to this man 3 years ago' : i was enjoying my barley pop, my herbage, and some tunes, the old man came outside to sit, so we talked. he asked if i could play some country music ( i don't recall the artist) i 'ok googled' some music. a song came on that he and his wife liked. he started to weep. he said he knew that it would end one day, and he was afraid of a nursing home. i committed myself right there. i told him 'no paul, i will never let that happen, we will stay here with you until the end, and you will die in your house. your home'. so, i told the nurse no, he will die here, as he wanted. he wasn't any easy man to be around this last year, got on my last nerves, but these events brought me back to the man i love. the man i thought of as my own grand dad. so...that's it. end blog.

iono. i've been told i'm a mean bitch. i dont' know if this will help.

i don't know, just seems creepy to even engage in telling your doctor you have a crush on them.

come spend a week with me. i'll show you things.

i mean..... what buddy said. or close too it anyway.

lately i've been into opening songs. ahs peaky blinders bob's burgers. cowboy bebop ya know. shit like that.

i'm picking teams RIGHT now. mthor ~ fisherwoman. wacky/tsar ~ need more good shooters/survivalist distorded ~ that boy scout life yo'. vamp/buddy ~ not opposed to cannilbilsm and can probably fry up some good human bacon bits scoob ~ for reasons. and pooh because she needs help.

oh shit. we in trouble. and i'm going to ....just step outside of the area...and.... **runs**

i can't with you two! 😆🤣 hai.

not sure how long i'll be 'stuck' at home these days. the GiL has fallen ill. he is almost at 'actively passing' i'm caring for him, as well as mid. we're doing home hospice for him. so we are literally stuck until the end day. the MiL helps, but it's just really us.