I'm still awake and I should be asleep probably so I can get an early start on my work day tomorrow.
I have houses on my route now from two different towns that are both 30+ miles out from where I live.
I've been on edge these last few days because I always try to stay ahead of the game when it comes to
work and finances, but I've hit kinda of rough patch. If I work somewhere part time on hourly or salary
I should be able pull myself out of this rut easily, but it's hard for me to care when all the time and
planning I spend doing it leaves me no time to pursue my own endeavors which actually bring enjoyment
into my life...
Everytime I do get into that safe zone I always have to set up for myself, and I finally feel like "ok!"
Now it's all about my music, or about skateboarding, whatever I feel like I have to play so much "catch-up"
That the feelings not as good as it should be.. Just another form of grinding or somee shit IDK.
Ladies and genltemen THAT was a blog post fuck... :::
That shit's what probably keeps me up at night though not insomnia or whatever other bullshit mental/social
shit you can get yourself talked into at a damn psych eval.. Anyway there comes a time when you just have to
DO IT! JUST DO IT.