treated me like shit.
we'd always play together and hang out or w/e when we were little even though she's a few years older than me, but one day she just randomly changed idk why.
i was always motivated to try to impress her or get her to notice me or w/e, but she never did
im not a psychologist or anything, but im thinking this was prob the start of a lot of self-esteem and other ego problems i have to this day.
i dont even know why this is suddenly coming back to me, or if it even matters at this point.
i prob deserve it cause of my ill-fated attempt to quit smoking.
im guessing im remembering all tihs cause i saw her for the first time in a long time a while back.