Poof

YOU JUST DRIVE AROUND???

Don't let madison watch. I swear a lot

awe thanks you all the viewers wanted to play w/me. i don't think they knew everything about me

docking at the outpost

Then we're gonna be the worst pirates anybodys ever heard of

I've been streaming state of decay which is a sandbox game. It kinda gets exciting out of nowhere tho so I think it's entertaining to watch. I unno maybe it's not and they just like my sultry voice

Idk. If you don't care maybe I will. Can they hear the party chat? I stream thru the xbox twitch app. i feel like it would be annoying for you guys, but at the same time I think the world does need to witness our pirate adventures.

I LOVE minecraft. I will build us a love nest, and take you to meet the other cows.

Yes I do

https://www.twitch.tv/michellefirestone I have 5 followers! Yay! Love!

What is this "happiness" ?

Exactly

How does that happen?

I know. Just hit the bank w/me

Stay safe californians

I am venting. It's been vented. I could get even more in detail I suppose but it's pretty much here in this thread now. I don't think venting really helps anyway. I don't even know why I did it tonight. If there's anything anyone can say to me to magically make me feel better I've never heard it really. I want some dissociative drugs. Like cough syrup k or pcp. Something to make everything go away for awhile.

Even if I'm not morose like this, I cry so much. It's a never ending cycle I can do nothing about. I get so tired of it.

Yes fuck food

Nothin

I know it will happen someday

I had some frozen berries but only as a coolant. No more food

No more food now

Thank you Jackie. I'm sure those things for sex workers and trans will happen someday. Idk if I can rise above anything anymore tho. Honestly, maybe if I had the right drugs but I'm simply not keeping up w/my shit. Then it's like a snowball effect. Like I can't afford my drugs and I don't work to be able to get them. Then I don't want to do anything even fun things. And I start hurting myself as a substitute bc it stops me from crying. I have to leave here in 2 months too and idk where I'm going yet. Thats another thing I hate. I hate moving so much. I have options but it's not going to be easy.

It's like there's nothing inside me but hate sadness and anger