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then get to it, yoo~hoo.

confession ~ i've been outside. all day. until this last hour or so. i'll do 2 tonight after shower, in comfy bed.

OOOH. yeah. ok a 'granny square' afghan. yeah, those will get itchy if used ALL the time. or not cared for. #4 yarn that is inexpensive does that. not that i don't use it, but yeah...i get what you mean.

ok. so after you were clean, and your mental health started going and trying to fix it. i will now assume that you have a psychologist and/or a psychiatrist. *you need both for bipolar?*

i feel like this is a 'yeah...but it's jake from state farms' moment. i honestly don't think the windows will mind if it's itchy. also, the yarn is like....what a dishtowel could be made from. (worst explanation, ever)

ok. i have a quick question. you haven't worked since 2014. and i assume that's because of this disability? have you been keeping accurate accounts of how this disability made you unable TO work *edit* prior to 2014?

ooooh. shameless pitch to get me to get her in here. *serious talk~from what i can tell she is SUPER busy*

well...that escalated quickly.

i....i don't understand.

but it's so kitschy! how can you not like kitschy? just wait until i finish it. show the girl child. i bet she will say 'ooooh that's so cool/pretty/neat' you're....such a man.

only half of me is racist.

i would love nothing more. but...let's play spades instead. my wrist is in pain today.

what did you need altered? cuffs? back? could have done that for you for cheap. and weed. and maybe beer.

the girl child and spouse were in the kitchen most of the day making jambalia (sp) and a cucumber lemon zest salad, and some sort of corn/bacon/onion thing. i've been sitting here trying to work on these 'flowers' and waiting for the 'dr.' to get back in town. GAWD i wish my garden would GROW already.

i said me. i know you don't smoke. that's all you took from that? *sigh* alrighty then. peace out.

in all sincerity, you must try not to think of what 'might happen' (a difficult task at best) you need to perhaps do a couple things to let your mind go of this 'impending doom' that you are imagining (again, easier said than done) try a few things, if only to get out of your head. 1. go for a walk, and think of a story of the things you see (i.e. you see 2 people talking, adlib their convo~make it amusing) 2. try a memory exercise. look at everything in your view for 30 seconds. close your eyes and try to remember everything. test your memory skills. 3. look up some comedy skits. whoever your favorite comedian is. escape. 5. write your feelings down on paper. like a letter to the 'demon of what might happen'. cuss it out, laugh at it, etc. then ....burn it. 6. meditate. 7. (and this would actually be my first) smoke a bowl. *edit* also, just let the new management know that you have standing appointments that have been in motion for some time. you can't be fired for attending appointments, especially if you make up the hours. but i agree with sponges, i don't think at your level (no offense) i don't know that you have anything to worry about.

not THAT kind of motivation. you monster.

they are. and very very simple. however, i have to double as i said. also, i bought WAY more colors than needed. of course this means i'll have to do a 3rd set.

you motivate me to motivate you to motivate me.

blech

i don't understand. i thought you worshiped her?

i can only have about 2 cups these days. and i don't do the 'caine. it's really bad for my sinuses.

so, i'm starting a new project. i'm going to making 2 of each flower (one for my house one for duzi) but...i can't get motivated. i've been sitting here for 45 minutes and have barely finished 1 flower.